Dear Hangeng,

At first I was contemplating whether to type this one in Chinese, but then I realised that my Chinese isn't that good, and it's not like you'll read this or anything, so here I go~

Tbh, you didn't really catch my eye when I first became an ELF. When I first heard you speak in EHB I just categorized you as "that-guy-with-the-different-accent". And to be painfully honest, you were never one of my Top 5 biases. It wasn't that I didn't like you or anything, it's just that you didn't stand out as much to me as compared to the other members. Nonetheless, you were a part of Super Junior, and the moments where you had your chance to shine in the spotlight during the various variety shows were the times when I felt really happy for you.

After all, it took a lot of courage for you to leave China and come to a foreign country to pursue your dream, something that I am really proud of. It must've been intimidating for you, since you were the only foreigner in Suju, and your Korean was...not that good. Yet, you still hung on till the end, and even then it was only when you could not take it anymore.

I really want to thank the members, who have always been by my side. Sorry for not being there during difficult times.

Another thing I like about you is how you're so filled with kindness and the need to help people around you. Perhaps this is the reason why SM treated you the way they did; because you were too kind, and every time you had a chance to leave, you probably would've just shrugged it off and say "It's ok, I'm fine."

I recieved your gifts, and I like all of them, thank you all! It’s just that, I hope you can use this money to help those who are in need. So they can share our happiness and be able to feel the warmth too. That would be the best gift.

Geng, you're always putting others before you, thinking about their welfare first. It was obvious that as the leader of SJM, you took pride in the sub-group, and I am so, so grateful that you took such good care of them while in China/Taiwan.

I still remember what happened when I read that you'd requested to terminate your contract. It was in December, and just the previous day I'd thought: "I'm glad nothing bad happened to Super Junior this year." (well, apart from Kangin's DUI incident, but that's another issue) When I woke up and saw the news, the first thing that came into my mind was "Crap.", followed by "What's going to happen to Chul?!" Thinking back on it, I guess I was really selfish because the first thing that came to my mind wasn't "What happened to Geng?"...

Following that, when Kyu posted on his Cyworld: "I don't understand...even a beast does not bite the hand of its owner..." (or something like that, my memory is hazy), the first thing that I came to conclude is that Kyu was saying you were worse than a beast, and it was only when I roamed SJ-World and someone said that Kyu probably meant that SM was worse than a beast, since Suju is the one who brings in the money for them, therefore playing the 'owner' role. Or something.

Anyway. Geng, your lawsuit incident made me think, a lot. I thought about what a bad ELF I was because of the conclusions that I made, the things that I thought of, and how I couldn't seem to form my own opinion about the whole situation. Simply put, I was just a very lost, confused and depressed ELF at that period of time. Only after pondering about it for a few days did I come to a conclusion: "As long as he is happy."