IAWTC.

PBL Showcase was...fun, I guess. Eunhae bit my arm and tried to bite my fingers again :( Then we heard that while my group and I went to buy dinner from Cheers the rest were watching/dancing to Lady Gaga's Telephone MV when the Vice Principal came in HAHAHAHA. And then aftwards she told Mr Tham that our class was very "together" *squee*

There's still about 3 months before we all get separated. I don't want to think about it but sometimes as I watch Eunhae chase Jamie around the classroom and Nicole making snide remarks and everyone being so happy I can't help but feel this sense of gratitude and dread all mixed into one. It's like...sometimes, having the thing that you love so much isn't that much of a good thing, because there's always that one fear that you will lost it someday, and I don't think I'll be able to cope with the sadness of losing 1S1'09/2S1'10.

;_;

Anyway. I didn't write letters to Zhoumi, Henry and Hae because for some reason all three of the letters would either me mega-long, or empty because I wouldn't be able to think of what to write for them. Yes, they mean that much to me.

So, I shall write a little about what I've been doing recently, since the fanletters have prevented me from documenting any of my life stories LMAO. I suddenly had an urge to reread the Sarah Dessen books in the school library, so I borrowed Just Listen, Someone Like You, This Lullably and The Truth About Forever (but not all at one go, of course). Rereading the books brings back so many Sec 1 memories~ *sigh*



Let's make this last, baby.
Today is the 30th of July 2010. It has been exactly one year since I became an ELF and...I honestly do not know what to say.

I first saw Super Junior on the TV, at Natacia's house. We (Jaime and I) were watching one of the award ceremonies and just as I'd turned to that channel, Suju started to perform Sorry Sorry. My first reaction? I laughed, out loud. I could help it; the chorus' dance moves were just too comical, or so I'd thought. After Sorry Sorry was It's You, but by then I had already made up my mind to YouTube search the Sorry Sorry MV, just so I could get a kick out of seeing them do those "ridiculous dance moves" again.

However, it wasn't my first time hearing about Super Junior. Magenta had been an ELF since April 2009, and had been MSN-spamming me various links to pictures and videos, determined to get me into the fandom. Although I replied with the adequate responses to all the spammage, it was the performance in that particular night of July that got me hooked.

After watching the Sorry Sorry MV, I fell irrevocably in love with them. I decided that my bias would be Siwon, because he was the one I recognized out of them, and Magenta had talked about him to me so many times. I then prowled YouTube, watching numerous variety shows and performances of them, and I fell so hard for each and every one of them.
I first noticed Hae in the It's You MV. At first I'd called him "The Guy Who Touches Himself", and I think the conversation went something like this (though it was definitely crackier):

Me: Hey, Magenta.
M: What.
Me: Who's that guy in the Neorago MV, the one in blue and who touches his lips/chests.
M: Oh, him? He's Donghae.
Me: Oh. He's cute, I like him.

From then on, I started to find out more about Hae and the rest is history.

Over the span of this year, I have changed so much because of Super Junior. I've influenced some people into becoming ELFs with me (*coughElysecough*), laughed out loud at the dorks that they are, cried when watching emotional videos, and went through many other dramatic episodes. If not for Super Junior, I would not have survived my first year of secondary school, where everything was just so...different. Each and every one of the member taught me a lesson one way or another, and thanks to them, I am able to continue living life with a purpose.

I know that most of my family members and friends think that my love for Super Junior is just a phase that teenagers go through, but for me it's something so much more important. I guess...this is the first time being a fan of people who don't even know of my existence has helped me matured so much. No matter how much I try, I can't seem to describe my love and admiration for them, and even as I type that I know some people will be rolling their eyes at my outlandish statement. Still, being an ELF is not something you can describe; it's something you feel.

Let's be realistic: 10 years down the road, I'll be 24 years old and probably fresh out of university (hopefully). Life would've thrown me many mroe responsiblities for me to undertake, and my fandom life will probably be put on a hold. Still, once an ELF, always an ELF, and even if one day in the future, when I do grow up and am no longer a fan, Super Junior will always be marked as a memory for me. It'll signify the time when the only causes of concern were upcoming tests, or the tired faces of Suju.

Thank you, Super Junior, so much. Words can't express my gratitude, love and admiration for you, and you won't even read this but still, thank you.


Dear Kyuhyun,

Hello, favourite maknae of all! I think your letter will be one of the longer ones, since you're my #5 bias and I just have so much to say to you.

First of all, I'm very, very, very glad that you joined Super Junior arter their debut. Although sometimes I find it a little sad that you weren't able to be there from the start, if you had never joined Suju there would be no one to be snarky at the other members, and the maknae would always be MIA (*coughKibumcough*). Your Don't Don hair was...not much to my liking, but you were still awesome at the hip-thrusts that all ELFs remember, and tbh I never really expected to see hip-thrusting!Kyu again, since SM obviously put more focus on your vocals.

Like all the other members, I'd watched one of the 'The Suju Guide: Let's learn about [insertSujumember'snamehere]' videos (though I forgot which one), and learnt about the 2007 car accident. Till this day, I am grateful that you survived, and that is one of my honest truths. It's still a little daunting for me to watch the new reports about the four of you being in a car accident, and how Teuk called out for your name. When I watched the cut on Strong Heart, and how you bravely talked about the car accident, my heart crumbled a little, as if it was the
first time I'd wondered what would've happened if you really had died back then. Thank you, Kyu (I'm so tempted to write 'sang kyu', but it would be really bad pun and ruin this whole letter XDD), for teaching me to never, ever take anyone for granted, and to cherish every moment I have with one of my loved ones.

Compared to you, I'm a genius.

On to the things I like about you~ Hm. One of the most important aspects that I love about you is your snark and sarcasm, of course. Everyone expects members of famous boybands to be quiet and polite and all those other boring things, but your witty UFO replies and quotes still manage to make me smile so much. Though some people might not be used to this side of Cho Kyuhyun, I view it as a piece of what makes you, well, you.

ELF: Thank you for being a singer.
Kyuhyun: Thank you for being an E.L.F.

Another thing I like about you is your voice, of course. I vaguely remember crying to Let's Not... before. Not because I was in a particularly depressed mood, but because KRY's voices were just so...beautiful. Though it may sound cheesy here, it was a really defining moment for me because it had been the first time I'd actually cried over someone's voice. Likewise, I've fallen asleep to KRY's voices so many times I've lost count, and most of the time it's your voice which stands out the most to me.

ELF: Kyuhyun I love you.
Kyuhyun: Ah, the popularity of this lad (referring to himself)

If there were a prize called "Maknae-who-does-not-act-like-the-maknae-but-actually-is", I would give it to you. It must've been so difficult for you, to debut on a stage with 12 other boys after only 3 months' worth of training, and even more difficult to have gotten back on stage after the accident. However, I'm sure that everytime you open your mouth, regardless of whether it's a snarky phrase or a golden note, I'm once again thank Shisus, God (even though I'm a free-thinker) for letting you live during that night in 2007. Because, if there was no Cho Kyuhyun
in Super Junior, there would be no KRY, no snarky maknae, and Super Junior would be less perfect.

Thank you, Cho Kyuhyun, for surviving the car crash, and thank you for teaching me to not take life for granted.
Dear Kibum,

Well uh. This letter's going to be difficult to write, since I don't know that much about you. I can't say I miss you, because you can't miss someone who has never really been there. Still, I guess I don't have any right to say anything about you, since I only became an ELF when you were already inactive as a member in Super Junior.

All I hope now is that you're happy and healthy, no matter where you are and what you're doing now. I know acting's a very important dream for you, and although your acting career hasn't been that successful so far, I'm still hoping that one day you'll be able to reach your goal. Though there hasn't been a lot of news about you recently, I also hope that you've been keeping in contact with the other 12 people, because no matter what, you're still a part of Suju.

Tbh, there are moments when you are not really in my good books, but I know that I don't have the right to be so selfish. But...as long as you're happy, then I'm happy.
Dear Ryeowook,

Eternal Maknae~ Just looking at the GIF at the top of this letter makes me want to squeal and savagely pinch those cheeks of yours, heh. Needless to say, I first noticed you in EHB, when you had that this conversation with Shin Dongyup:

Shin Dong Yup: If you eat this leaf, you can't experience a single type of taste. You can't experience it at all.
Ryeowook: Forever?!?!

It was the very first thing that I laughed at in EHB, and I'd immediately put you as my #2 bias in Suju (right after Siwon). Although you proceeded to drop to #4 along with Yesung, you still have a special place in my heart. Idk, maybe it's because of the fact that you're so...innocent. I honestly believed you were the maknae until Kyu appeared in EHB, and even then I was insistent on viewing you as the maknae, just because you still seem like the youngest to me.

One of the many moments when you melted my heart was on Animal Farm, when Ddabong died and you cried so badly. I remember feeling this extreme want to envelop you in the tightest hug I've ever given because at that moment you just seemed so childlike and fragile ;_;

The world is yours. It's what you make of it.

I guess you could say that you're the member that brings out my motherly instinct the most (ROFL), mostly because you look like the one who needs to be taken care the most of (even though you're the one who cooks for the rest of the members lol). Still, the way you can still smile so easily even though Super Junior has gone through so many rough times inspires me, a lot. It makes me really happy to see you smile on stage, and sometimes your smile is one of the things I can depend on to brighten my day.

直到实现变得模糊   直到不能呼吸   让我们形影不离

Oh, and one more thing: PLEASE eat more! It seems like you're skinner than me sometimes, which is just plain scary o.o Though your cheekbones are your signature...body part (?!), it worries me when your cheekbones appear so sharp in some of the fancams. EAT MOAR PRZ.

I'm really, really, grateful that you joined Super Junior. It must've been a little difficult, suddenly getting into a group to be a "replacement" for one of the ex-members, but you're already established your own persona and I'm thankful that you were put into Super Junior because if not, I think Suju and SJ KRY would be less special.

Hm, what else...AH. Thank you for providing me with so many YeWook moments because you can never have too many OTP moments. Thank you for being SJ-M because it comforts me that if I ever get a chance to meet you guys (hopefully in 6 months' time I really will be able to 8DDD) we can at least converse in basic Mandarin.

Thank you, Kim Ryeowook, for being such an adorable Eternal Maknae ♥
Dear Siwon,

Choi Siwon, you were my very first bias when I first became an ELF. It happened mainly because Magenta had spammed me with so many GIFs/pictures of you in MSN, and then you were the only one I recognized among the others, heh. Even though you had only been my bias for a few weeks, whenever I think of you I immediately associate it with the time when I started out as a clueless ELF, and the feeling of nostalgia makes me so happy, for some reason.

E.L.F.s are like my heart; the most important thing that enables me to live.

One of the reasons as to why I like you is because you're one of the most perfect men I've ever seen. It just seems like you have no flaws what so ever, to the extent that it creeps me out sometimes (XD). You're such a gentleman, you're good with kids, you can speak Mandarin and English (I like this fact because if I ever get to meet you it gives me some comfort that I'll at least be able to converse with you in basic Mandarin/English).

No matter what anyone, anyone says, I don't care. And even if someone, someone badmouths me, I only see you.

Of course, I must dedicate a part of this letter to the aspects that I love most about you. First of all, your love of skinship. It amuses me to no end that although you look like a dapper, young gentleman, you're the member who's obsessed with skinship the most, always hugging the other members or clinging onto their arms/necks. You've taught me the age-old saying: Never judge a book by its cover, and believe me, that has helped me so much ever since I started secondary school.

There are countless reasons as to why I like you so much, some of which are the Shibrows, your staunch faith to your religion (thereby earning the name Shisus) etc. If you weren't in Super Junior I probably would've lost a little interest in the beginning, seeing as it would've took me a longer time to choose my bias. Thus, thank you so much for being in Super Junior, and for being such a perfect Shisus ♥

Forever, happy together.

I feel so guilty this has got to be the shortest letter out of them all and to think that he was my first bias ;_;

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Dear Hyukjae,

Ah, Anchovy, my second bias~ You're the person I love the most (right after Hae, of course) in Super Junior, and sometimes I can't help but feel more biased towards you than Hae, heh.

You became my 2nd bias somewhere in between EHB and Full House ("Nice weather!"), mostly because of your stupid dorkiness. It also helped that I started to ship HyukHae, and after
searching, right-clicking and saving so much evidence of HyukHae, I gradually fell for those gummy smiles you flash so often.

PD: Eunhyuk, you are always in the front.
Eunhyuk: Yes, I’m the main person.
Donghae: *pushes Eunhyuk* I sent him to his place!
Eunhyuk: I have no choice. In order for the album to turn out good, you need someone the public will like.
*The members push him to the back*

Hyuk, you have made my life so much more happier, with all your stupid jokes and nonsense. Tbh, when you started to get AOS, I was kind of worried, because I was unsure of whether you were still the dorky Hyuk that I loved. I mean, Bonamana was a very different concept that Super Junior had ever had. Then the antis started talking about how Super Junior should stop showing so much skin, and how Suju was "copying 2PM" *rolls eyes* The fact that you now had abs more defined than ever and flashed them in almost all of the Boom Boom
promotional stages also added fuel to the fire, and for a small period of time I was really worried for you guys.

Even after I get old, I want to sing for them.

Then I remembered that the main reason I had become an ELF was because Super Junior is unlike any other guy group I'd ever seen. You guys are random, stupid, nonsensical and overall just very, very endearingly....goofy, and I know that no matter what happens, no matter how many 'sexy concepts' you all have to go through, you guys will always be the dorks that I fell head-over-heels in love for. And so, I decided to stop being such a worry-wart and enjoy the Bonamana stages (especially the flashing of abs and skin, heh heh heh.)

Whenever people ask me why you're my second bias, I can't really seem to list out the points. Either that or there were too many for me to list out; you're just that awesome. One thing I would tell them though, is that although you seem like the kind of person who rarely takes things seriously, your passion for dancing and Super Junior is really, really admirable. If there's one thing I hope you never stop doing, it's dancing. I like how when you're so caught up in dancing, dork!Hyuk seems to disappear and hot!Hyuk takes over. Idk, seeing you so deep in concentration is just very...appealing to me (ROFL).

Kyuhyun: Eunhyuk hyung ran to me and grabbed my hands, and because I was praying to be alive, Eunhyuk started praying with me too.

You know, when I watched Kyu's cut on Strong heart (when he was talking about the 2007 car accident), and how he said you were the first one who ran to check on him even though you were injured yourself, I teared up so badly. It's just that...Idk. Everything about you just seems so...wonderful.

Eunhyuk, Anchovy, Hyukjae. No matter what name you take on, I will always continue to love you as much as I love Hae, because really, you two are the ones in Super Junior who have inspired me the most, so all I can say is: thank you.

The only thing that I can give you is love
Although it's insignificant
Even though there are areas where I'm lacking
I will protect the love between us, me and you
Let's make a promise, no matter what happens we will still be in love - Marry U

Dear Sungmin,

Yay, our very own Aegyo Prince in Suju~ You're one of the important factors as to how I became an ELF. Because if Magenta had not made your her bias in Suju, she would not have started on her quest to influence me into an ELF, and I would probably have not become an ELF (oh shisus, that would be totally disastrous D:)

It's hard to remind myself that you're already 24 years old, especially whenever you do your aegyo moves. I know that sometimes it may be a little annoying how people keep on making you do aegyo when you're already an adult, but I'm glad that you're the Aegyo Prince in Super Junior, because everytime I see you doing it I feel so happy; just a simple Ming-Smile will be able to cheer me up when I'm in one of my depressive moods.

Isn't this what love is? It's because of your love that you worry, you support, and you want to make someone happy.

Although you were never really one of my Top 5 biases, you were one of the members whose name, face and voice I committed to memory first (partially because of Magenta). Your voice is undoubtedly one of the better ones in Super Junior, and sometimes I wonder why you weren't put in KRY.

I feel like I won't be able to do anything without E.L.F.

Sometimes I feel really indignant for you; you can sing, you can dance, yet for some reason whenever Super Junior is on stage you're the one with the least screentimes, and sometimes you get lesser lines than the others. Still, please do not ever forget that you are a very, very precious person ('prection' lol), and remember that we ELFs will forever be waiting for the day when SM realises your potential!

Although sometimes, some of the members outshine you, please remember that without you, Super Junior would definitely be less spectacular.

Super Junior can sing because of E.L.F.'s support.

And ELFs' can smile because of Super Junior. Thank you Sungmin, for making me smile so much ♥
Dear Donghee,

Heh heh, the (dance) prodigy of Super Junior. First of all, thank you for choreographing so many of the awesome moves for Super Junior (I especially love the ones in It's You)! Without you, the chest pops in Neorago would've been less epic ;D

I know a lot of people aren't going to believe me but when I first saw you in Super Junior I didn't go "Oms he's fat", it went more like the lines of: "Eh cool, they have a plus-sized member." I viewed your...chubbyness as factor that made Super Junior different, something that made them different from the plethora of boy bands in the K-Pop fandom. So I guess it's safe to say that you're one of the main factors as to why I became an ELF: you made them special.

I hope we can be the one forever.

I know it's been hard for you, having been labeled "that fat member in Super Junior" ever since your debut. I get so riled up whenever my family members start to make fun of you whenever Super Junior appears on television programmes, because I know you're so much more that what you appear to be. In fact, I have a lot of respect for you, Donghee. Having the courage to stand on stage and be proud of your body size at the same time is the one of the most difficult things to do, and I'm really, really proud of you.

My name is Dongshin. I like samgyupsal. I'm hungry.

Another thing I like about you is how much you care about the people around you. Food is more important to you than...other people, so when I learnt about you went on diets and lost 29kg for ELFs, and then you went on to lose more weight for Nari. From this I could tell how much you cherish everybody who's played an important role in your life, and it's just really heartwarming to know that you're more than a chubby guy who knows how to dance.

나,리,야
우, 리,
결,혼,하,자,
청,혼,하,는,거,야,
사,랑,해,줄,게,
영,원,히, 
nari,
let’s get married,
this is a proposal,
i’ll love you,
forever

When I heard about your secret marriage proposal I was really, really happy. Ngl, I was predicting that you would be one of the last ones in Super Junior to marry, so when news of your proposal came around I felt so elated for you. It's heartening to know that apart from the other 12, you will be able to have someone else to share your burden and take care of you. Even though I'm still a little...miffed about how she dumped you before forcing you to lose weight just so that you could have her back, I'm sure Nari is a good person, and I can't wait to see your wedding photos, heh heh heh.

It's still a long way before most people can accept the fact that you're heavier than the average idol, I'll continue being proud of you, because you've taught me to be proud of myself, regardless of how other people judge me. You're definitely one of the members who deserves more recognition, Donghee. Thank you so much, for bringing so much joy into my life as an ELF ♥

Dear Youngwoon,

This letter won't be as long as the others, because you're the first member to whom I wrote a fanletter to (this is already my 3rd one to you), and in the other 2 letters I've already written all my opinions of you, so I'll just...simplify this one.

First of all: I hope you've been taking good care of yourself in army! It was kind of heartening to see the photo of you in the army; you fit in so well, and if the fanaccount from one of the ELFs is accurate, I'm glad that you're still the Kangin that we all know and love:

#1: An ELF has a brother who is the instructor in the camp, so the ELF told her brother to take care of Kangin well, and said that now there isn't anything special regarding Kangin, he is living well inside. On the 11th, the ELF spoke with the brother. Brother said that Kangin is very interesting, telling everyone about stories of artists and so he seemed to make many friends. They seemed to already have formed a group. Recently the brother is busy so won’t be making much calls but when he is out for break, he will talk more on Kangin’s life in the camp

#2: There is an ELF’s friend’s friend’s brother is in the same camp as Kangin. He said Kangin is especially funny/ interesting, and talked alot about artists. When asked if Kangin has haters inside, the answer she got was that Kangin already has his own group/gang inside the camp.

SOURCE: camomile/온새미로
Credit: 强特私人公寓
Chinese translation: 紫菜包饭
English translation: minoko2440 @ sapphirepearls.com
Take out with full credits and DO NOT ADD YOURSELVES TO THE CREDITS

I know you'll be able to adapt to army life quickly, because Kim Youngwoon is a tough person, right? ^^;

The other 12 boys are doing fine; Geng had a successful concert, and the others are going to start preparations for the SMTown Concert'10, and SS3. Although I won't get to see you in SS3 (Idek whether I'll be going >.> BUT LET'S HOPE FOR THE BEST :D), I know that you'll be able to find some way to watch their performances, and silently root for your 12 other brothers!

I believe that 2 years will pass by quickly, and when you get discharged from the army I'll be preparing for my O levels; as quoted from a senior of mine, I'll make you my motivation, and not my distraction, so make sure you take care of yourself and come out with that familiar smile that all of the ELFs are waiting for, alright?

“I’m sorry and I’ll be back healthy and well..."

I'll hold you to that promise, Kim Youngwoon ♥

Ah, my 4th bias~ I think I decided you were my 4th bias after watching Suju's Come to Play, when they were promotng 3jib. Of course, it was the part where the members started to discuss about your philthrum-touching habits and your weirdness, and then I became so interested about your quirky personality.

Eunhyuk: The weird thing about Yesung is when he's alone, he feels bored. He's bored and jealous that Heechul, upstairs, has a cat, so Yesung says, "I don't want to be lonely, I should get a pet too." He told me this many times, and a few few days later... there was a turtle in our dorm. And the name was 'Little Potato'...

Yesung: 'Little SWEET Potato'

Eunhyuk: The weird thing about Yesung is when he's alone, he feels bored. He's bored and jealous that Heechul, upstairs, has a cat, so Yesung says, "I don't want to be lonely, I should get a pet too." He told me this many times, and a few few days later... there was a turtle in our dorm. And the name was 'Little Potato'...
Yesung: 'Little SWEET Potato'
Eunhyuk: Oh, it was called 'Little Sweet Potato'. He always talks to it, but the turtle is so small, it doesn't do anything, doesn't move at all. Just blinks its eyes. It doesn't do anything, so a few days later, he told me, "Ah, I was bored.... but now I'm more bored."

It's hard to pinpoint why I like you. I guess it's because you don't behave that like that calm, collected image that you portray.

ELF’s poem to Yesung : “When you're silent, you aren't recognized. When you sing, you're the most captivating in the world. You’re always silently shining.”

Your voice is one of the few ones that I can fall asleep to (in a good way), and I often find myself thinking how unfair it is that you're one of the underrated members in Suju. I remember you saying how usually, one way to stand out in a normal boyband (aka one with 5 members) is to act mysterious and all, but in Suju that concept completely fails because you just get left out ain the end.

You helped me understand the basis of the K-Pop fandom; you have to do anything and everything to stand out, because if not you tend to get overlooked. Still, I hope you understand that ELFs will continuing loving you because of who you are, and not what you do. We love you because of your wackyness, your goofyness, and how you don't mind people labeling you as 'weird' because that's just who you are.

The past has already passed. Everything will start a fresh. We won't forget that we are Super Junior's members. We are a family.

I watched The Suju Guide: Let's Learn About Yesung and when I listened to the voice message you posed on your Cyworld after the 2007 car accident, my heart died a little. It was then that I realised that there are so many sides to you that I'm not aware of, and may never learn about.

Nevertheless, I hope you won't get influenced by other fans who tell you to "be more normal", because I never want you to change yourself just so you can be in Super Junior. Super Junior is Super Junior because they have a Kim Jongwoon who manages to make everyone happy, even in the most depressing moments.

ELF: Gege(s) have to be together forever.
Leeteuk: Together with every ELF forever, love all of you.
Kyuhyun: Hyung, that was really greasy.
Shindong: Nods.
Yesung: Digs nose....

Thank you, Jongwoon, for teaching me that no matter what people say, staying true to yourself is ultimately the best thing to do, and thank you for giving me so many YeWook moments ;D
Thank you, Geng. You made me realise that a real ELF is not somebody who has numerous Suju merchandise, it is someone whose first priority is to make sure that all of the 15 boys are happy and safe. Someone who trusts Super Junior, and will protect them without any hesitation.

All I want now is for you to be happy. Regardless of what some "ELF"s say, I know that you're finally fighting for what you rightfully deserve, and I wholeheartedly approve of your pursuit. I know you'll shine, Hangeng.

P.S. Coincidentally, tonight will be the very first stage of your solo concert. 韩庚，加油 ♥
Dear Heechul,

Ah, my third bias in Suju. The first time I noticed you was in EHB, during the episode concerning Taste, iirc. Unlike others, your diva-ness kind of made me like you more, rather then put me off. Your wacky personality made EHB and all the other variety shows so much more enjoyable, particularly Full House.

I guess, the reason why you're my third bias is because some aspects of my personality are similar to yours. Every time you accidentally offend people with your blunt words, I can relate to it so much, and most of the times your words are only brute honesty, instead of the things other K-idols say to suck up to their fans.

The fact that you stand up for yourself and refuse to put on a the typical Mr. Nice Guy mask also makes me love you even more, and I hope you never stop being yourself ^^;

Heechul: Like one time, I would ask "How would you want me to dress?" She says, "wear whatever's comfortable," "Ok" ..Then, she asks "what do you want me to wear?" and I think, "now, this is my chance" so, I tell her - "wear your hair up so I can see your neck, don't wear earrings that are too big," I like plaid skirts so, I'd tell her to wear a red one, THEN she says "Yah, what the hell, I don't want to!" Then I get angry, of course..She told me to dress one way but she won't do what I want! It's so selfish..Because I'd do stuff for her too.

Host: What have you done for her?

Heechul: Well, she told me to wear comfortable clothes so I did..SHE'S LUCKY I DIDN'T GO OUT NAKED...

I first got to learn about Chul in EHB, during the X-Ray episode, I think. At first I was really confused because of the metal rod in your leg, then after I snooped around SJ-World and watched The Suju Guide: Let's Learn About Heechul I was just so overwhelmed ._. Though I have to admit, it amused me to no end that you refused to faint in front of the camera even though you were in so much pain that you had to bite your tongue until it bled just to keep you awake XDD All beause you're Kim Heechul, someone who does not show his weak side.

It can't be helped. I, Kim Heechul, was born to successfully make women fall in love with me. It's not my fault. It's not of my free will. My mother and father created this face!

It's difficult to explain to people why you do the things you do, because Kim Heechul cannot be defined. You're just that unique, and I hope you never, never change. You've taught me how to back down, to be shameless when the occasion calls for it, and most importantly, to stand for what I think is right, even if I stand alone.

Thank you, Kim Heechul. Thank you for not leaving Super Junior during 3jib, because if you did I would never have learnt so much and...basically, just thank you for being you.
Alright, so since my 1st Year ELF anniversary is in 15 days, Steph gave me the bright idea of writing one fanletter to each member of Suju instead of  typing out a long, long, long, long, long post on 30th July XDD Thus, I shall start with Teuk and work down the age chart, heh heh heh.

 

Dear Jungsoo,

Yay, my favourite leadjer out of all the other K-Pop ones, heh heh heh. But to be honest, you are really one of my role models, and not just because you're from Super Junior.

The way you always ensure that every member is ok, the way you always bow 90 degrees and more, the way you're not afraid to cry even though in actual fact you're one of the strongest members in Suju (not only because you have to, but because you want to, for the sake of the 12 of them). And most importantly, the way you keep on pushing you and the others forward even though you know the future of Super Junior is not going to be filled with gumdrops and rainbows.

You know from life that nothing lasts forever, like love or work. I want to protect the name Super Junior and let it last forever.

Your selflessness inspires me, a lot. Whenever I find myself on the verge of breaking down because of some stupid project that I'm in charge of, I think of you, and how you had to keep the group together amidst Suju's worst times, and I have motivation to carry on again. The amount of strength you have is just so....awe-inspiring.

I know that sometimes you may say the wrong things and offend lots of people, but it's something that most of us have went through, and it's that fact alone that somehow makes me feel...closer to you. And it reminds both fans and antis alike that idols are humans too, and that they shouldn't be condemned to hell just because of a little slip-up.

I am very tired..But because I have all of you who support me I have the energy to go on!!!♥^^

I think, the moment when you made your status known in my heart was when I was watching The Suju Guide: Let's learn about Leeteuk and I got to the part about the 2007 car accident. Even though you were on the stretcher and blinded in one eye because there was so much blood flowing down your head, you still called out for Kyuhyun, and at that moment there I literally felt your concern for the maknae. Everything about you was just so...perfect.

Another moment was when Hae's dad passed away, and you revealed that he had asked you to take care of his son. You have lived up to your word, and for that I am eternally grateful, no matter how cheesy that sounds.

I know it's difficult being the leader, especially if you're expected to take care of 12 other people. I just want you to think more about yourself once in a while, and to stop putting on a strong front. Sometimes, it's ok to be selfish.

You're probably going to enlist into the army soon, but I really hope I get to meet you at least once in my life, just to tell you how much you inspire me, and how thankful I am that you're Super Junior leader. Because if not for you, Super Junior would most not be as driven, as awesome and as lovable as they are now.

I shall end off with a quote that almost all ELFs know, and one of my favourite Super Junior quotes. Thank you for coming to this earth. Thank you for taking care of all the other 12. And most of all, thank you,  for being Park Jungsoo.

It's not an End, it's an And.

Ah, I've missed having Coleen as my tablemate, she's so nonsensical 8DDD

Jae ships KyuHae and she keeps on showing me KyuHae pics/GIFs :( KyuHae is cute, BUT OF COURSE EUNHAE IS THE PRECTION-EST OF ALL.

OH NO I HAVEN'T COMPLETED MY HEALTH BOOKLET AND IT'S DUE IN 5 HOURS *flails* Procrastination ftw \o/

OH YAY 5 MORE MINTUES TILL THE END OF LSCEP OK BYE.
BOLD YOUR FAVORITES:

1. Siwon (Super Junior)
2. Donghae (Super Junior)
3. Kyuhyun (Super Junior)
4. Kibum (Super Junior)
5. Kangin (Super Junior)
6. Leeteuk (Super Junior)
7. Eunhyuk (Super Junior)
8. Ryeowook (Super Junior)
9. Sungmin (Super Junior)
10. Han Geng (Super Junior)
11. Heechul (Super Junior)
12. Shindong (Super Junior)
13. Yesung (Super Junior)
14. Zhou Mi (Super Junior)
15. Henry Lau (Super Junior)
16. GDragon (BigBang)
17. TOP (BigBang)
18. Daesung (BigBang)
19. Taeyang (BigBang)
20. Seungri (BigBang)
21. Jaebeom (2PM)
22. Nichkhun (2PM)
23. Taecyeon(2PM)
24. Wooyoung (2PM)
25. Junsu (2PM)
26. Junho (2PM)
27. Chansung (2PM)
28. Max Changmin (TVXQ)
29. Xiah Junsu (TVXQ)
30. Micky Yoochun (TVXQ)
31. U-Know Yunho (TVXQ)
32. Hero Jaejoong (TVXQ)
33. Joon (MBLAQ)
34. Seungho (MBLAQ)
35. G.O (MBLAQ)
36. Mir (MBLAQ)
37. CheonDoong/Thunder (MBLAQ)
38. DongWoon (BEAST)
39. Yoseob (BEAST)
40. JunHyung (BEAST)
41. HyunSeung (BEAST)
42. DooJoon (BEAST)
43. GiKwang/AJ (BEAST)
44. Hongki (FTI)
45. Jonghun (FTI)
46. Minhwan (FTI)
47. Jaejin (FTI)
48. Seunghyun (FTI)
49. Lee Seunggi
50. Lee Minho
51. Kim Bum
52. Taemin (SHINee)
53. Jonghyun (SHINee)
54. Minho (SHINee)
55. Onew (SHINee)
56. Key (SHINee)
57. HyunJoong (SS501)
58. JungMin (SS501)
59. KyuJong (SS501)
60. HyungJoon (SS501)
61. Song Joong Ki
62. Jang Geun Suk
63. LeeU (F.Cuz)
64. Jinon (F.Cuz)
65. Yejun (F.Cuz)
66. Kan (F.Cuz)
67. Wonbin (ex- FT Island)
68. ChangHyun (SHU-I)
69. MinHo (SHU-I)
70. Inseok (SHU-I)
71. HyunJoong (SHU-I)
72. Jinseok (SHU-I)
73. Ha MinWoo (ZE:A)
74. Hwang KwangHee (ZE:A)
75. Jung HeeChul (ZE:A)
76. Moon JunYoung (ZE:A)
77. Park HyungShik (ZE:A)
78. Im SiWan (ZE:A)
79. Kim TaeHun (ZE:A)
80. Kim DongJun (ZE:A)
81. Kevin Kim (ZE:A)
82. Shin SooHyun (U-KISS)
83. Alexander (U-KISS)
84. Kim Kibum (U-KISS)
85. Eli (U-KISS)
86. Lee KiSub (U-KISS)
87. Kevin Woo (U-KISS)
88. Shin DongHo (U-KISS)
89. Bi Rain
90. Changmin (2AM)
91. Jinwoon (2AM)
92. Seulong (2AM)
93. Jokwon (2AM)
94. CL (2NE1)
95. Minji (2NE1)
96. Bom (2NE1)
97. Dara (2NE1)
98. Taeyeon (SNSD)
99. Sooyoung (SNSD)
100. Seohyun (SNSD)
101. Tiffany (SNSD)
102. Hyoyeon (SNSD)
103. Jessica (SNSD)
104. Sunny (SNSD)
105. Yuri (SNSD)
106. Yoona (SNSD)
107. Yonghwa (CN Blue)
108. Jungshin (CN Blue)
109. Jonghyun (CN Blue)
110. Minhyuk (CN Blue)
111. Kim Ah-Joong
112. Park Gahee (After School)
113. UEE (After School)
114. Bekah (After School)
115. Kim Jung-ah (After School)
116. Lee Jooyeon (After School)
117. Yoo Soyoung (ex-After School)
118. Raina (After School)
119. Nana (After School)
120. Lizzy (After School)
121. Park Gyuri (KARA)
122. Han Seungyeon (KARA)
123. Nicole (KARA)
124. Goo Hara (KARA)
125. Kang Jiyoung (KARA)
126. So Hee (Wondergirls)
127. Sun Ye (Wondergirls)
128. Sun Mi (Wondergirls)
129. Ye Eun (Wondergirls)
130. YooBin (Wondergirls)
131. Eunjung (T-ara)
132. Hyomin (T-ara)
133. Ji-Yeon (T-ara)
134. Soyeon (T-ara)
135. Boram (T-ara)
136. Q-ri (T-ara)
137. Victoria (f(x))
138. Amber (f(x))
139. Luna (f(x))
140. Sulli (f(x))
141. Krystal (f(x))
142. Injoon (d-na)
143. Jay (d-na)
144. Mika (d-na)
145. Hyunmin (d-na)
146. Karam (d-na)
147. Woohyun (Infinite)
148. Myungsoo / L (Infinite)
149. Dongwoo (Infinite)
150. Seungyeol (Infinite)
151. Hoya (Infinite)
152. Sungjung (Infinite)
153. Sunggyu (Infinite)

I miss this sfm. Watching this makes me both sad and happy at the same time. Oh Suju, the things you do to me.

Things That Are Due On Monday:

- Health Booklet
- Chinese 作文 + worksheet
- Math homework (which I have already done BWAHAHA)
- Geog homework? Idek

Sources of Motivation for the Week
- Guides
- CrezAwards

...And I guess that's all. I need something new in my life ;_;

I'm glad I did some Hungarian dancing when I was still in ballet, I have a feeling it'll be fun ^^;
Stolen shamelessly from Kellie 8D

Super Junior

The character I first fell in love with: Siwon
The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: Heechul
The character everyone else loves that I don't: Idk, Kibum? XDDD
The character I love that everyone else hates: Um. I know a lot of people who disliked Kangin before he enlisted into the army...
The character I used to love but don't any longer: D: WHAT?! HOW CAN I EVER STOP LOVING ANYONE OF THEM T.T
The character I would shag anytime: Donghae (heh heh heh.)
The character I'd want to be like: Teuk
The character I'd slap: Kibum
A pairing that I love: EUNHAE.
A pairing that I despise: Kihae :x
Favourite character: Hae :3
My two favourite characters: Hae & Hyuk
My two least favourite characters: Erm. Kibum and...Idk. XDDD
Which character I am most like: Um. Heechul? HAHA
My deep, dark fandom secret: I don't think I have any ._.




Hyuk, what's wrong :(
PBL was good, but it could've been better.

I've changed so much, Idek who I am anymore. Yes, I know how cliched that sounds, but it's the truth. Last year I put my all into any project work, and even if I had to rush through it I made sure that it was at least presentable. I feel like such a failure; Loosin did the script, Jamie did the slides, Zhang Yan did the Awareness Activity proposal and Wang Yi did the CIP proposal. And what did I do? Nothing. *bangs head on wall*

I feel so disappointed in myself, but I can't help but feel so...unmotivated. Streaming is going to happen in less than 5 months' time and I don't need want this to happen to me right now. I feel so...distant from everyone else all of a sudden, and I don't want this emotional...thing to affect the other people around me lskaghjalg;dag.

I think I need to sleep.

And then there’s that girl; the one that’s always confused, the one that’s never good enough, the one who’s been through so much, but she’s still trying her hardest to be happy.

Dear Youngwoon,

So. In around 40 more minutes it'll be 5th July. the day of your enlistment.

I...honestly do not know how to feel. On one hand, I feel proud of you for deciding to enlist now, on another hand I feel so reluctant to let you go ;_;

Even if it wasn't your own decision to enter the army, I think that it will be good training for you. After that hit-and-run incident I really wanted to grab you by the shoulders and shake some sense into you, and even though I truly believe that you've done enough self-reflection during your hiatus, perhaps army life will help make you a better person. Besides, you've been gaining weight ever since 3jib /bricked

I really hope that you will learn from your past mistakes, and I know you will be able to survive in the army. It will be tough, but you're a tough teddy bear, right? Please don't be so brash and end up creating trouble again ;_; Always think of the other 14 people waiting for you back in their dorms, and the other millions of ELFs waiting for you all over the world.

I know that even though it seems unlikely now, but 2 years will pass quickly, and once again we'll be able to see your half-crescents once again as you leave the army with pride all over your face. It will be difficult not to miss you though, and everytime I think of what the boys will do without their appa my heart dies a little ;_;

But in the end, all I will feel for you is pride. When I heard about your appearance at the fanmeeting I felt immense joy; it reaffirmed the fact that no matter what happens, no matter how many people insult you and no matter how many mistakes you make, you will always be a part of Super Junior, and Super Junior will always be your - our - safe haven.

It will be very difficult, but I'll wait, as will many of the other ELFs.

"Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while, goodbye."

It'll only be a short while, y/y? And even though I'm a free thinker, I'll pray for whoever is listening that you become a better person in 2 years. I'll pray, I'll wait, and I will never, ever, stop being an ELF.

"My heart that loved you
My eyes that looked at you
I’ll wait."

♥ Rachel.

1. This made me incredibly happy.
2. Why hello thar, second favourite girl group.


They're just so adorable *_*




I am happy.
Today turned out better than I'd expected it to ^^

We had our first D&T lesson in almost 1 year 8D All the memories came flooding back (lolol), and isometric drawings are still my weak points T.T I finally learnt how to draw the light rays and mirror thingamajig in Science, after one whole day HAHA. I think I annoyed Steph and Elyse by my constant questions >.>

Lit was surprisingly fun XD I hadn't read Macbeth, so it wasn't a surprise that I had to stand for 20 minutes LOLOL. I like Mrs Ng's technique though, it makes us think a lot XD

Well, I'm off to bed now. Ever since school started I seem to be tired almost everyday T.T Elyse says it's because I go to Math tuition almost every night, but I think my body still needs time to adjust to school life XD Anyway, I'm sidetracking again. Good night~



She's so pretty oms *_*

HELLO PEOPLE! Rachel is me. I'm emotionally awkward, might have OCPD, and most people cannot comprehend my logic and way of thinking which is full of awesomeness and win. A true-blue ELF, and a Triple S.

Wishlist
- A pet goldfish (which I will name Ember 8D)
- To spray whipped cream into my mouth
- To go to a fish spa
- To become roomies with Magenta and Cassandra
- Sony Ericsson W705e
- Canon E19 Cotton Candy Pink digital camera
- 「爱的3温暖」S.H.E book
- “Rumour Has It” by Jill Mansell
- “The Resistance” by Gemma Malley
- “The Feminine Mystique” by Betty Friedan
- “It Must Be Love” by Rachel Gibson
- “You Kill Me” by Alison Gaylin
- "Heartless" by Alison Gaylin
- "Thirteen Reasons Why" by Jay Asher
- 《Breakthrough》Colbie Caillat CD
- 《爱，一直存在》梁文音 CD
- 《Super Junior 05》Super Junior CD
- 《U》Super Junior CD
- 《Don't Don》Super Junior CD
- 《Sorry Sorry》Super Junior CD
- 《Super Girl》Super Junior M Mini-Album
- 《Super Show II》DVD

- Super Show 3 in Singapore (8DD)

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Patricia
Ping Xin
Sachpreet
Shalynn
Stephanie
Yixian
Zhang Yan

Girl Guides
Adeline
Hannah
Joyce
Kellie
Li Yun
Mao Ning

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Paula W.
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