random insanities.

dear teukie.

Thursday, 15 July 2010 @ 08:58

Alright, so since my 1st Year ELF anniversary is in 15 days, Steph gave me the bright idea of writing one fanletter to each member of Suju instead of typing out a long, long, long, long, long post on 30th July XDD Thus, I shall start with Teuk and work down the age chart, heh heh heh.

Dear Jungsoo,

Yay, my favourite leadjer out of all the other K-Pop ones, heh heh heh. But to be honest, you are really one of my role models, and not just because you're from Super Junior.

The way you always ensure that every member is ok, the way you always bow 90 degrees and more, the way you're not afraid to cry even though in actual fact you're one of the strongest members in Suju (not only because you have to, but because you want to, for the sake of the 12 of them). And most importantly, the way you keep on pushing you and the others forward even though you know the future of Super Junior is not going to be filled with gumdrops and rainbows.

You know from life that nothing lasts forever, like love or work. I want to protect the name Super Junior and let it last forever.

Your selflessness inspires me, a lot. Whenever I find myself on the verge of breaking down because of some stupid project that I'm in charge of, I think of you, and how you had to keep the group together amidst Suju's worst times, and I have motivation to carry on again. The amount of strength you have is just so....awe-inspiring.

I know that sometimes you may say the wrong things and offend lots of people, but it's something that most of us have went through, and it's that fact alone that somehow makes me feel...closer to you. And it reminds both fans and antis alike that idols are humans too, and that they shouldn't be condemned to hell just because of a little slip-up.

I am very tired..But because I have all of you who support me I have the energy to go on!!!♥^^

I think, the moment when you made your status known in my heart was when I was watching The Suju Guide: Let's learn about Leeteuk and I got to the part about the 2007 car accident. Even though you were on the stretcher and blinded in one eye because there was so much blood flowing down your head, you still called out for Kyuhyun, and at that moment there I literally felt your concern for the maknae. Everything about you was just so...perfect.

Another moment was when Hae's dad passed away, and you revealed that he had asked you to take care of his son. You have lived up to your word, and for that I am eternally grateful, no matter how cheesy that sounds.

I know it's difficult being the leader, especially if you're expected to take care of 12 other people. I just want you to think more about yourself once in a while, and to stop putting on a strong front. Sometimes, it's ok to be selfish.

You're probably going to enlist into the army soon, but I really hope I get to meet you at least once in my life, just to tell you how much you inspire me, and how thankful I am that you're Super Junior leader. Because if not for you, Super Junior would most not be as driven, as awesome and as lovable as they are now.

I shall end off with a quote that almost all ELFs know, and one of my favourite Super Junior quotes. Thank you for coming to this earth. Thank you for taking care of all the other 12. And most of all, thank you, for being Park Jungsoo.

It's not an End, it's an And.