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Happy 1st Year Anniversary!

Friday, 30 July 2010 @ 13:33

Today is the 30th of July 2010. It has been exactly one year since I became an ELF and...I honestly do not know what to say.

I first saw Super Junior on the TV, at Natacia's house. We (Jaime and I) were watching one of the award ceremonies and just as I'd turned to that channel, Suju started to perform Sorry Sorry. My first reaction? I laughed, out loud. I could help it; the chorus' dance moves were just too comical, or so I'd thought. After Sorry Sorry was It's You, but by then I had already made up my mind to YouTube search the Sorry Sorry MV, just so I could get a kick out of seeing them do those "ridiculous dance moves" again.

However, it wasn't my first time hearing about Super Junior. Magenta had been an ELF since April 2009, and had been MSN-spamming me various links to pictures and videos, determined to get me into the fandom. Although I replied with the adequate responses to all the spammage, it was the performance in that particular night of July that got me hooked.

After watching the Sorry Sorry MV, I fell irrevocably in love with them. I decided that my bias would be Siwon, because he was the one I recognized out of them, and Magenta had talked about him to me so many times. I then prowled YouTube, watching numerous variety shows and performances of them, and I fell so hard for each and every one of them.

I first noticed Hae in the It's You MV. At first I'd called him "The Guy Who Touches Himself", and I think the conversation went something like this (though it was definitely crackier):

Me: Hey, Magenta.
M: What.
Me: Who's that guy in the Neorago MV, the one in blue and who touches his lips/chests.
M: Oh, him? He's Donghae.
Me: Oh. He's cute, I like him.

From then on, I started to find out more about Hae and the rest is history.

Over the span of this year, I have changed so much because of Super Junior. I've influenced some people into becoming ELFs with me (*coughElysecough*), laughed out loud at the dorks that they are, cried when watching emotional videos, and went through many other dramatic episodes. If not for Super Junior, I would not have survived my first year of secondary school, where everything was just so...different. Each and every one of the member taught me a lesson one way or another, and thanks to them, I am able to continue living life with a purpose.

I know that most of my family members and friends think that my love for Super Junior is just a phase that teenagers go through, but for me it's something so much more important. I guess...this is the first time being a fan of people who don't even know of my existence has helped me matured so much. No matter how much I try, I can't seem to describe my love and admiration for them, and even as I type that I know some people will be rolling their eyes at my outlandish statement. Still, being an ELF is not something you can describe; it's something you feel.

Let's be realistic: 10 years down the road, I'll be 24 years old and probably fresh out of university (hopefully). Life would've thrown me many mroe responsiblities for me to undertake, and my fandom life will probably be put on a hold. Still, once an ELF, always an ELF, and even if one day in the future, when I do grow up and am no longer a fan, Super Junior will always be marked as a memory for me. It'll signify the time when the only causes of concern were upcoming tests, or the tired faces of Suju.

Thank you, Super Junior, so much. Words can't express my gratitude, love and admiration for you, and you won't even read this but still, thank you.