random insanities.

flowerpecker.

Thursday 22 April 2010 @ 20:35

The majority of flowerpeckers are resilient in their habits and are not threatened by human activities.

We had our very last Flowerpecker patrol corner today.

Well, technically it can't be considered as a 'patrol corner' since only Pei Jun, Elyse, Serena Ma'am and I were talking. But still.

I don't know. I suppose...the truth that today was our last Guide session only hit me when I saw Serena Ma'am and Pei Jun's faces wet with tears. And to think that the previous hour ago I had been praying so hard for the enrollment ceremony rehearsal to end because my back and legs were aching.

I don't even know how I ended up crying. I used to pride myself on the fact that I'm generally emotionally stronger than most people, and how I don't cry that easily, but I guess I was wrong :/ Elyse was the only one who didn't cry (but I'm sure she will on Saturday XD).

Serena Ma'am is really, really, really one of the few people who I look up to. When I was telling her how much I respected her my voice just started to crack and I felt that familiar pressure in my eyes and then I just completely broke down.

It's just that...1 year has passed by so fast. All the times we spent in GGC'09, practicing footdrills, doing campcraft and outdoor cooking, Patrol Corners...I'd taken all of them for granted. I've been so blessed to have been put into Flowerpecker, to have such awesome patrolmates and such a wonderful PL and PS.

"Even if I get scolded, I will not let you guys 被冤枉."

I don't remember when Serena Ma'am said that, but now it really makes me feel so touched. And that's what I told her; having her as PL made me feel protected and safe in Guides.

And now I realise that Flowerpecker has always been a sort of safe haven for me. No matter how much BS I have to go through, no matter how many testworks I have to take and how much time I spend on footdrills, Flowerpecker will always be there to listen to my rants and ramblings.

I am so happy that I went for GGC'09. If not for it, I don't think I would be so in love with Girl Guides.

"Please...don't forget me OK?"

I won't, Serena Ma'am. Or, to be more precise, I can't, even if I wanted to. You've made a great impact on my life, and I will never forget , the one who never left any of her juniors behind, and the Ma'am who continued to smile even when nothing was going right.

“A farewell is necessary before we can meet again, and meeting again, after moments or a lifetime is certain for those who are friends.”