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Friday 24 October 2008 @ 19:19

So, yeah, the captain's ball match was held at 12pm today. And guess what?

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I was the made the freakin' reserve. So all the excitement I'd felt later on was unfounded on. =_=

I'm not trying to be all bitchy and diva-ish, but sure, go on and make me the substitute. After all, I'm the shortest and most useless of all, since I hardly get the ball. Yeah, it's no problem if my feelings get hurt.

*sigh* But I can see why Crystal, Deanna and Alyssa made me the reserve. I'm not tall (like Alyssa), I'm not good at catching (like Deanna) and I'm definitely not as good as strategising (like Crystal). But you know what, it's hard to think logically when you're so pissed off and on the verge of a breakdown.

Yes, I know, "I think you're too emotional, Rachel, I mean, it's just a game. I think you're overracting." Still, no matter how hard I try, I just can't quell the feeling of unknown anger and hurt. And no, I do not have depression.

At least Alyssa was trying to "comfort" me. "I might get tired, so you can take over then." Yeah, as if the team would let such a powerful and tall player in our team to switch with the small, short reserve.

*breathes in* Let's look at the bright side. At least I'm not like Kimberly, who got replaced by Wen Xing.

But it sure feels like I've been kicked out of the 'team'. I probably wasn't even in the other players' minds when they were on the court. So much for "taking over".

As always, Evvie was being an awful lot of help and she was trying to comfort me. And at least we won against 6Honesty. I guess that's one thing that's going well.

I know, it's just a friendly match, but honestly, I feel like crap. I really hate myself for being so emotional. I'd probably affect the team if one of them reads this. *sigh*

But if anyone in the team is reading, I just want to tell you that I'm really okay with being a reserve. I just needed to release some of the steam I felt JUST NOW. I'm coming to terms with it now. (God, I sound so dramatic.)

So I hope the 6Care team will do their best in the upcoming match against 6Courage. I looked at the results chart and it showed that the results for the match between 6B (courage) and 6E, which means that either 6E is not very good at captain's ball, or 6B kicks butt in it. I hope it's the former.

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HELLO PEOPLE! Rachel is me. I'm emotionally awkward, might have OCPD, and most people cannot comprehend my logic and way of thinking ~~which is full of awesomeness and win~~. A true-blue ELF, and a Triple S.

Wishlist
- A pet goldfish (which I will name Ember 8D)
- To spray whipped cream into my mouth
- ~~To go to a fish spa~~
- To become roomies with Magenta and Cassandra
- ~~Sony Ericsson W705e~~
- Canon E19 Cotton Candy Pink digital camera
- ~~「爱的3温暖」S.H.E book~~
- “Rumour Has It” by Jill Mansell
- “The Resistance” by Gemma Malley
- “The Feminine Mystique” by Betty Friedan
- “It Must Be Love” by Rachel Gibson
- ~~“You Kill Me” by Alison Gaylin~~
- ~~"Heartless" by Alison Gaylin~~
- "Thirteen Reasons Why" by Jay Asher
- 《Breakthrough》Colbie Caillat CD
- ~~《爱，一直存在》梁文音 CD~~
- 《Super Junior 05》Super Junior CD
- 《U》Super Junior CD
- 《Don't Don》Super Junior CD
- 《Sorry Sorry》Super Junior CD
- ~~《Super Girl》Super Junior M Mini-Album~~
- 《Super Show II》DVD

- Super Show 3 in Singapore (8DD)

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