random insanities.

because of you.

Sunday, 9 May 2010 @ 20:37

It has been approximately 14 years, 2 months and 14 days since I was born, and since my mother became, well, a mother. And I really want to say, thank you.

Thank you for putting up with my senseless tantrums and moodswings.
Thank you for waking up every morning, sometimes getting not more than 4 hours of sleep everyday, just to make sure the whole family gets up on time.
Thank you for always putting me and Tristen first, making sure that we never get lost in the crowd.
Thank you for putting so much trust in me.
Thank you for taking so many leaves from work just so you can accompany me to ballet, or to the doctor's.
Thank you for not asking 'why' when I'm in one of my cranky moods and don't feel like explaining.
Thank you for being so self-sacrificing.
Most of all, thank you for having me and being such an awesome mummy.

My birth transformed you from a wife to a mother, and I know that raising me must not have been easy. Especially now, when I've just turned into a teenager and have the most unreasonable behaviour. I really want you to know that I love you so much, and that I'm very, very, very grateful for all that you've done for me and the family.

In December 2008, when I wanted to go for the overseas dance trip, I know you were silently thinking about the financial issue, and recently when I told you about the inter-UG trip, you were thinking about the same thing. And yet, you still told Daddy to circle the 'I do permit my daughter to...' option.

I know I'm stubborn, careless, straightforward (and sometimes rude), and a lot of other things, and it must be a headache that I've inherited so much of Daddy's genes. Running a household as dysfunctional as ours just makes you want to puke blood sometimes, I know.

I might not have heard your troubled words, or seen the tears you've shed because of me, but I know your love for me cannot be summarised in words, and if there's one person in the whole wide world who I wish could accompany me to Heaven, it would be you. Not because I want you to take care of me even after we die, but because I want you to be able to live in paradise.

Because that's what you deserve, and more.

I love you, Mummy, and thank you ♥