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Friday, 30 April 2010 @ 19:26 Mr Fever finally went away, and I was able to go back to school ^^ I'm really, really grateful that I'm blessed with such awesome friends and classmates who sent repeated get-well-soon messages, and that brief webcam session with some of the S1-ers just made me smile so much ♥ After such a horrible experience, I think I'm going to learn to appreciate life more. Laugh, love, live. And I realise that I'm obsessed with so many things ._. 1. OCPD Well, I don't really have OCPD, it's actually just self-diagnosed, but I just can't stand it when things aren't in order (e.g. messy tabletop, desks in class are not aligned properly). And yet I can't bring myself to make my bed every morning. Hmm. 2. Notebooks I can't explain this one ._. I just have this compelling urge to buy notebooks whenever I see ones with pretty covers, and then I end up keeping them in my drawer and not using them because I don't know what to do with them :( 3. Fangirlism Self-explainatory. On another note; MR THAM IS THE MOST AWESOME FORM TEACHER EVER, WHICH OTHER TEACHER STALKS HIS STUDENTS VIA FACEBOOK. it's just goodnight and not goodbye.
Saturday, 24 April 2010 @ 23:05 Never say goodbye because saying goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting. - Peter PanSec 4 Farewell'10 was held yesterday. So, things didn't start out as nicely as I'd wanted them to. Firstly, Kellie forgot to bring her tablecloth, and everyone wasn't picking up their phones, all of which equates to me having a panic attack -.- And then Gin and Hannah came and they told me that the jelly hadn't hardened yet and was still in "watery state". I was so compelled to drop everything and just run out of school at that moment, srsly XDD But then we managed to borrow a tablecloth from the Guide den, and we forgot about serving the jelly anyways (DX sorry Hannah + Gin!) The party was very successful, and the food was delicious. Serena Ma'am was crying like mad (I think she was close to dehydration ._.), but surprisingly I didn't cry (as much as I thought I would). I cried during the performance of My Wish, though. And then once I started I couldn't stop T^T It's hard to imagine that it's already been a year; a year full of testworks, patrol corners, footdrills and basically, being a CrezGuide. It's also been a year since all the Sec 4 Ma'ams stepped up, and yesterday, they all stepped down. All I can say is that it's been a wonderful 365 days with all of them. If I start writing dedications to all of them now I'll never be able to stop, so I won't XDD Congratulations to Zhihan for being this year's CL~ And Joyce and Audrey for becoming ACLs 8D I want to linger
a little longer here a little longer here with you It’s such a perfect night it doesn’t seen quite right It’s my last night here with you And come September I will remember Our lasting friendship true and strong And as the years go by I'll think of you and sigh It's just goodnight and not good bye. flowerpecker.
Thursday, 22 April 2010 @ 20:35 The majority of flowerpeckers are resilient in their habits and are not threatened by human activities.We had our very last Flowerpecker patrol corner today. Well, technically it can't be considered as a 'patrol corner' since only Pei Jun, Elyse, Serena Ma'am and I were talking. But still. I don't know. I suppose...the truth that today was our last Guide session only hit me when I saw Serena Ma'am and Pei Jun's faces wet with tears. And to think that the previous hour ago I had been praying so hard for the enrollment ceremony rehearsal to end because my back and legs were aching. I don't even know how I ended up crying. I used to pride myself on the fact that I'm generally emotionally stronger than most people, and how I don't cry that easily, but I guess I was wrong :/ Elyse was the only one who didn't cry (but I'm sure she will on Saturday XD). Serena Ma'am is really, really, really one of the few people who I look up to. When I was telling her how much I respected her my voice just started to crack and I felt that familiar pressure in my eyes and then I just completely broke down. It's just that...1 year has passed by so fast. All the times we spent in GGC'09, practicing footdrills, doing campcraft and outdoor cooking, Patrol Corners...I'd taken all of them for granted. I've been so blessed to have been put into Flowerpecker, to have such awesome patrolmates and such a wonderful PL and PS. "Even if I get scolded, I will not let you guys 被冤枉." I don't remember when Serena Ma'am said that, but now it really makes me feel so touched. And that's what I told her; having her as PL made me feel protected and safe in Guides. And now I realise that Flowerpecker has always been a sort of safe haven for me. No matter how much BS I have to go through, no matter how many testworks I have to take and how much time I spend on footdrills, Flowerpecker will always be there to listen to my rants and ramblings. I am so happy that I went for GGC'09. If not for it, I don't think I would be so in love with Girl Guides. "Please...don't forget me OK?" I won't, Serena Ma'am. Or, to be more precise, I can't, even if I wanted to. You've made a great impact on my life, and I will never forget , the one who never left any of her juniors behind, and the Ma'am who continued to smile even when nothing was going right. “A farewell is necessary before we can meet again, and meeting again, after moments or a lifetime is certain for those who are friends.”:) meme.
Tuesday, 20 April 2010 @ 19:58 It's been a long time since I did a meme ._. 1. How far away is the last person you kissed? Far into the future :3 2. Has someone ever told you they would be with you forever? Nope. 3. Last person you were in a car with? ...Mum and brother. XD 4. Any plans for tomorrow? Survive another school day -.- 5. How long does it take for you to take a shower? 15 minutes >D 6. Best friend or close friends? Close friends ^^ 7. Is tomorrow going to be a good day? I hope so :3 8. Did you kiss anyone Friday? Psh, I've never kissed ANYONE. 9. Ever thrown up in public? Is school considered public? ._. 10. What's on your mind RIGHT NOW? The possibilities of me working at Disneyland XD 11. Who was the last person you talked to? Physically: Elyse + Steph + Pingxin MSN: Loo Sin + Vanessa 12. What is the WORST subject they teach at school? MATHS (N) 13. Have you seen anyone lately that you don't get along with? ...Yes >< 14. What is your favourite colour top to wear? White ^^ 15. Have you ever been in a car accident? When I was in my mum's womb, yes XD 16. What's the closest thing to you that's green? Green pen LOL. 17. Where would you like to be right now? Disneyland LMAO 18. Write down some lyrics to the song you're listening to? I’ve never met a person like you You make my heart flutter But all you do is think about other girls I can see it all with my eyes. Thinking that all girls belong to you. Assuming that everyone will like you. The people who are around are oblivious. Here and there, your sweet words. Echo - SNSD XDDD 19. How many dogs do you have? 0 D< 20. Is anything bugging you right now? Yes :X 21. Is life going right for you now? ...It's a bumpy ride. 22. Is there someone you care about more than yourself? Yes. 23. What made you laugh today? Abbi being Abbi, among other little things 8D 24. What was the last movie you watched? How To Train A Dragon >D 25. What's the last conversation you had about? Uh, Super Junior comeback XDD 26. What were you doing at 7:00 this morning? Walking to school, iirc. 27. Do you like your hair long or short? Long, I look terrible in short hair. 28. Do you want to see somebody right now? Yup :P 29. Do you like the rain? Depends on where I am. XD 30. Did you have a valentine this year? No :( 31. The last person you kissed needs you at 3 am, would you go? - 32. Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else? Yes (depends on who though XD) 33. Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you? YUSS. 34. How do you feel about boys smoking? ...Ew D< 35. Could you see yourself with someone forever? Perhaps :) 36. If you suddenly became single or are single, do you think you could last in a relationship for 12 months or more? Probably too inexperienced to do so -.- 37. Do you forgive or forget? I forgive, but I never forget. I hold grudges too easily :/ 38. Do you trust people? Only people who I've known for a long time. 39. What are you not looking forward to? MYEs -.- 40. Do you get mad easily? ...I guess you could say I'm hot-tempered... 41. Tell us about the last time you were told you that you have pretty eyes. A few days ago :3 42. Do you have strange dreams? 'Strange' is an understatement. 43. Ever licked someone's cheek or forehead? o.o N-no. 44. Tell us about the last time you fell asleep in someone's arms. When I was 4 =_= 45. When did you last play a game? Just now, on the MRT 8) 46. What do you have on you at all times? Skin. 47. Do you go out in public without getting all dressed up? Most of the time, yes XD 48. Do you like fruity or minty gum? MINT FTW. 49. Favourite musician or group? SUPER JUNIAH. 50. Do you like anyone? XDD 51. Favourite computer game? Does roleplaying count XDD 52. First album you ever went and bought with your own money? Hm. It was a S.H.E album, if I'm not wrong. 53. Think back five months ago, were you single? I've always been single. 54. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries? Yes, why not 8D 55. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? I'd like to think so :3 56. Last thing you bought? Red bean bread ^^ 57. Are you a jealous person? Nope. I hope ._. 58. Does it take a lot to make you cry? Yup. I guess you could say I'm emotionally stronger than most people... 59. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? ...Not really >< 60. Have you ever had your heart broken? Thankfully, no. 61. Have you ever done something while drunk that you still cannot believe you did? Never been drunk before ._. 62. Is there anyone you secretly wish you could be spending your time with right now? Heh. 63. Do you text? Of course :O 64. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now? Not 'right now', since my phone is still being kidnapped -.- 65. Is your life anything like it was a year ago? LMAO NO. 66. Go back one year on your blog. Leave us a link to your favorite post. Meh. *lazy* 67. You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it? Water ._. XD 68. Tell us about someone that you have lost contact with someone you wish you didn't. My kindergarten best friend. I remember her name was Stacy though >D 69. What is the last thing you said out loud? "Yeah, writing now." 70. Will this year be better than last? It'd better be. sorry, but...
Monday, 19 April 2010 @ 21:43 Sometimes, the only people who motivate me to wake up everyday and slog through the day are these 15 boys, friends and food. Heh. but you'll be alright, you'll be alright
Sunday, 18 April 2010 @ 16:35 Cause when push comes to shove, You taste what you're made of. You might bend 'til you break, Cause it's all you can take. On your knees, you look up, Decide you've had enough. You get mad, you get strong, Wipe your head, shake it off. Then you stand. :) @ 10:42  I'm OK now, really. XDD Rachel Yeak won't give up that easily >D Saturday, 17 April 2010 @ 23:13 I hate how nobody gives a damn when I put in my best efforts to do something, but once I slip up everyone starts tackling me and tries to pull me down. Sometimes, I can't help but wonder if anyone would care if I died. Would anyone miss me? Miss the way I randomly break into song, miss the way how I purposely sing off-tune to annoy them? Would anyone miss Rachel Yeak? Would anyone cry if they saw that empty seat the next day? I know people would turn up for my funeral, but would anyone genuinely cry for me? Will there be anyone who will regret being mean to me, not telling me how they feel about me? Regret how they took me for granted while I was alive? Meh. I think I'm too emo today. It isn't exactly my best day this week. On the other hand, Li Yun (Guide senior) lent me her copy of Th1rteen R3asons Why. It's such an awesome book. But I guess it's affecting the way I'm thinking, since it's also about suicide u_u Being emo!Rachel is nice once in awhile. 我但愿有一个人 在等我 "So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit; it's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit." boys in the city 3.
Friday, 16 April 2010 @ 18:48 akshg;algakhaweg;hlgkhaslgdhgalg I MIGHT BE GETTING THE BOYS IN CITY 3 PHOTOBOOK WITH ELYSE 8DDDD But then again, if I did, I'll deplete all my savings, and I still need money to buy clothes for the Sec 4 Farewell...u_u BUT WHO CAN RESIST THIS, THIS AND THIS?! *in a dilenma* In other news, we finally finished choreographing our dance for Sec 4 Farewell, woo~ It's so awesome, thanks to Isabel, Stephanie and Elyse for coming up with such incredible dance moves *_* And my water is boiling, TIME TO COOK MY INSTANT NOODLES, BYE. my heart still can't seem to let you go.
Wednesday, 14 April 2010 @ 20:09 OMGOMGOMGOMG. You know I was reading OMTD during school and I saw the news that the MV came out and I nearly squealed in the middle of English XDD I guess this means they're going to promot Take Care Of My Girlfriend, which is awesome because it's my favourite song from Shock Of The New Era, mainly because the lyrics are so interesting 8D Despite the MV being quite low-budget, THE GUYS ARE STILL SO GORGEOUS IN IT ;_; Mubank in April/May will be so epic. raindrops are falling on my head.
Tuesday, 13 April 2010 @ 21:25  But then again, so am I. Today was quite a...productive day? We finally got to choreographing 30s of our Sec 4 Farewell dance, woohoo~ Isabel is so awesome, srsly. She should be a dance choreographer when she grows up. I have this sudden urge to go bookshopping :( about geng.
Sunday, 11 April 2010 @ 17:07 Just thought I'd post this to prevent flame wars -.- Being involved in K-Pop so much more exhausting than being in the C-Pop fandom. In C-Pop, things are so much more peaceful, antis are rare, and overall, the whole fandom is in serenity. K-Pop, on the other hand, is filled with drama and scandals. Even so, I do not regret becoming an ELF, because Suju has taught me so many things. They've taught me how everyone starts small (when they'd debuted as Suju 05 they weren't even given a dressing room), taught me how never to give up without a fight, taught me how to look out for every single person in your family, no matter how often they show up at family gatherings and events. When 2009 was coming to a close, I was so glad that Suju was not involved in any problems regarding their contract, because after I'd seen the Cassies talking about the DBSK issue, I knew that if Suju were ever to disband, I would be just as heartbroken. Then came the day when Geng filed for termination of his contract. Seriously, at first I'd thought that it was just a publicity stunt for Idk, 4jib or something (yes I know, bash me for being such a mean fan -.-). Then the scan of the official document came in and all the other BS started flowing in and reality hit me: Hangeng is going to leave Super Junior. If getting Geng to stay meant him working so hard until one day he just completely collapsed, I'd rather he leave Super Junior. It's ridiculous how some ELFs are screaming "COME BACK GENG". I know seeing all 13(+2) of them on stage is every ELF's dream, but...I really want all of them to be happy. Being a fan doesn't mean you buy all their merchandise, stalk their websites and memorize all of their biodata. It means you love their music, you love their personalities, and you just love them as a whole. You don't have to stalk them every time they come to Singapore; just pray that they'll be safe and not get injured if the fans mob them. As an ELF, all I want is that everyone to be happy, that's it. If Teuk prefers television hosting rather than being the umma of Super Junior, that's fine with me. If Kibum prefers acting over singing, that's fine with me too, because that's what he wants to do. If Geng wants to end his career of being a member of Suju, I'd tell him "just go for it". In simple terms: even if you are a fan, you have no right to tell your idols what to do. You have no right to tell them "you can't date that girl, she's a slut." Neither do you have the right to tell them they aren't allowed to leave their company. Geng has his own rights to do whatever he wants. He's a 26-year-old man, for goodness' sake. I'm pretty sure he's allowed to make his own decisions. That being said, I know Geng wouldn't bear to hurt any of the other guys, and he would've discussed the matter with them before bringing forth his decision into action. I admit that I'm in no position to judge anyone, but my intuition tells me that Geng wouldn't leave Super Junior if he had been given better treatment. This may or may not be true; but then again, this is my blog, so I'm free to express my opinions and views. Even if you call him 'acquisitive' or 'greedy' or any other word you can find in the thesaurus, fine. But if you call him that, then I think you have no right to call yourself an ELF. 到了明天 你就离开我身边。
Saturday, 10 April 2010 @ 09:21 Oh god. Geng, why are you so prection ;_; It makes me happy to hear that he's finally living the life he deserves. And how he didn't bash SM. And how he smiled so much when talking about his mother (who looks so young, btw ._.) Fly high, Geng. I'll be waiting for your solo comeback, and don't forget about those 14 brothers you have back in Korea ♥ This made me cry. Srsly. People who know me well know that making me cry is quite a difficult thing to do, but these 13 boys and k-ELFs managed to turn the waterworks on in just 4 minutes. We are EverLasting Friends. Friends who will forever stand by Super Junior, through thick and thin. Friends who will chide you when you make mistakes, but make sure that you learn from them. Friends who look out for you. Friends. Who love you so much even though you don't even know of their existence. I'm proud to have become an ELF. Becoming an ELF has made me a happier person, and these 15 guys have taught me about the word 'family' more than anyone else has ever done so (excluding my real family, of course). For a lifetime I’ll be by your side, I do pisces.
Tuesday, 6 April 2010 @ 21:41 Pisces (Feb 18 - March 20)Hm. The lucky number part intrigues me. The number 14...sounds so sad now, as said in my MSN PM. Idk, it feels like something is missing. But I guess I'm glad that they're not breaking up or anything ^^ Also...is it wrong if I feel more excited about Super Junior's comeback than feel sad over Geng's departure :/ I guess I've already accepted the fact that Geng's leaving, and I just want all of them to be happy, really. Tbh, I'd rather Super Junior split up if none of them were happy now. If it meant that they could have their lives back then, so be it. "We are Super Junior because there's all 13 of us. We have to be 13 to be Super Junior and to be on stage; it's not a team where a member is bad or good, but we shine the best when all 13 of us are together." - Kangin13 + 2 = ∞, baybeh. first quater of 2010 birthday post.
Sunday, 4 April 2010 @ 08:58 Since today is Hyuk's birthday, I might as well dedicate a birtday post to all my biases whose birthdays just past 8D Choi Jonghoon (March 7th): I still remember when I first met you; it was at Fort Canning, 12 December 2009. I'd attended the Sundown Festival Seoul'd Out, where you performed with the other 4 bbs. Just like my favourite song from FTI said, I know love from first sight.Idk, when I saw you playing the guitar, I just thought that if I ever were to become a Primadonna (which I did, 13 days later 8D), you would be my bias. AND TADA, YOU DID. *claps* Anyways. I'm still a new FTI fan, so I might not know as much as the...experienced Primadonnas *coughLooSincough*, but I hope to be able to learn more about you guys, AND DID I MENTION HOW EXCITED I AM FOR YOUR COMEBACK L;AGJSGL;SKGHSL;FAFAS; HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHOI JONGHOON ♥ Lee Gikwang (March 30th): Ah, I'm only a 5-day-old B2uty, but I remember watching the Bad Girl MV when it first came out, and I was...intrigued XDD Idk why I hadn't become a Beast fan then, but still, better late than never ^^ Continue being such an awesome guy Park Jungmin (April 3rd): PARK JUNGMAL~ Just like Jonghoon, I can still remember how, when and why you became my bias 8D It was when that issue that came up between the Shaworlds and Triple S when RDD won LLT (or vice versa, I can't remember u_u), so I decided to watch the LLT MV just to see what all the commotion was about. And this was the line that made me fall in love with you hook, line and sinker: Hey Girl! Today of all days, you look prettier I hope you enjoyed your 23rd birthday~ ^^ Lee Hyukjae (April 4th): Ngl, if it wasn't for Vanessa I wouldn't have known it was your birthday u_u But you can't blame me, I don't have the ability to remember birthdates T^T But Hyuk, you're my second bias in Suju, and I love you so so so much, that the only person I love more than you is Hae HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. But srsly, your dancing skills are like akghds;ga, and that period of Neorago hair, as well as that time when you dyed your hair red was just...*_* It's funny how you were so dorkish last time, and now you're so...hot. But you're still that lovable dork *squishes* I hope you're going to celebrate your birthday with all 14 of your brothers (particularly Hae 8DD), and I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOUR COMEBACK *spazzes* Wow. That took me quite awhile >.> mazick mazick,
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