I am burnt out.

For the past 48 hours, I have been worrying about 2S1'10, our class tee, Guides, Council, INCrowd and basically how I'm going to even survive till my BIRTHDAY, much less till the end of 2010.

Yesterday after tuition I came home and then left for Queensway in an hour. Came back at around 9 then tried to work on Lit (of which I only managed to do RESEARCH and no actual typing). Today, I woke up at 10AM, researched on Home Economics + Lit, went out at 12PM+ to check on T-shirt vendors again, came back at around 4PM.

I still have not:

1. Studied for Guides test (which is tomorrow, yayz.)
2. Finished my Math homework (which is thankfully due on Thursday)
3. STARTED on Art (also due on Thursday)
4. Editted Lit webpage
5. Gotten ready for Full Guide U tomorrow

It's only the end of January and I've had about...12 panic attacks already -.- Yes, that was a random number BUT DO I LOOK LIKE I AM SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY COUNTS THE MOMENTS WHEN I START HYPERVENTILATING AND IMAGINING THE WORST THAT COULD HAPPEN?!

...Actually, yes. Yes I am. Beause I am an anal-retentive perfectionist who might have OCPD.

I guess I should be grateful that:

1. I have fingers to type this.
2. I have a laptop to type this on.
3. I have a roof over my head.
4. Both my parents and brother are alive.
5. I am healthy.
6. I can go to school.
7. I have awesome friends.
8. I am loved.
9. I know that I am loved.
10. Blah, can't think of anything else.

OK, EMO TIME OVER~ Time to get started on Lit nao >D

Starseeds are individuals who feel excitement and longing upon learning that they might have originated from another world. They experience the aloneness and separateness that is the human condition, but also have the sense of being foreigners on this planet. They find the behavior and motives of our society puzzling and illogical. Starseeds are often most reluctant to become involved in the institutions of society, e.g. political, economic, health care, etc. Even at an early age, they tend to discern the hidden agendas of such conventions with unusual clarity.

Omg, it would be cool to be a Starseed. And I think I'm one >D *crazy*

Do you think you are a Starseed?

Here are a few of the characteristics you may recognize.

These are from Brad Steiger's book StarPeople:

Compelling eyes. (Heh. I think my eyes are my best features, so...>D)
Lower than normal body temperature. (My hands are unsually cold most of the time.)
Was an unexpected child. (LOL NOT SURE ABOUT THIS.)
Chronic sinusitis. (I have this. As in, seriously.)
Hypersensitivity to electricity or electro-magnetic force fields. (What. XD)
Experience buzzing or audio tone prior to a psychic-spiritual event or warning of danger.
Have "flying" dreams. (I've had some of these in the past.)
Children and animals are attracted to you. (:D)
Felt Earth mother/father not real parents. (What?!)
Had unseen companions as a child. (I used to have an imaginary friend called Alice. Or something)

Also:

The frustrations levels and the 'need to know now' levels - run high. (This is the most accurate, I think. XD)
Their eyes have an extremely compelling quality (*waggles eyebrows*)
They have great magnetism and personal charisma (LOLOLOL.)
They are very sensitive to electricity and electromagnetic fields
88-92% have lower body temperature than the norm
At an early age they had some kind of extraterrestrial, religious or mystical /experience
92% feel a tremendous sense of urgency to fulfill their missions (*nods head*)
65% are female: 35% are male (Whee~)
90% have experienced a sense of oneness with the universe ("Oneness" LOL)
83-94% have chronic sinusitis
32-34% have extra or transitional vertebra
97% have hypersensitivity to sound, light, odors
70-87% have swollen or painful joints
93% have pain in the back of the neck
84% adversely affected by high humidity
71% have difficulty dealing with/or expressing emotions (OMG THIS TOO. My EQ is not exactly the highest...)
74% report out of body experiences
57% perceive auras
63% have experienced a white light during meditation
50% believe that they receive some form of communication from a higher source
50% have accomplished dramatic healings on themselves and others
38% practice automatic writing
60% have perceived spirit guides
75% have experienced clairvoyance, clairaudience
57% have made prophetic statements or experienced prophetic dreams or visions that have come to pass
38% have been visited by an angel
37% reveal the manifestation of a Light Being
35% feel that they have been blessed by the appearance of a holy figure
50% are convinced that they have a spirit guide or angel
40% admit to having had an invisible playmate as a child (This. XD)
20% once spotted an elf or "wee person" (ELF~ But Idk whether I've seen a real one before ._.)
14% have witnessed the activities of the "fairies" (This triggered something. But it could just be my imagination XD)
34% are certain that they have encountered alien entities of an extraterrestrial or multidimensional level
55% report an intense religious experience
72% claim an illumination experience
90% have experienced telepathic communication with another entity, physical or non-physical from another realm.
48% have seen a ghost (Well, there was that incident in Primary 3...)
42% have connected with a deceased loved one
76% believe in reincarnation and have past life memories
37% have survived a life-threatening illness
34% have been involved in a severe accident or trauma
55% have had near death experiences
78% believe that have lived on another planet and can tell you about it
Some are aware of parallel existence at this time in other worlds
86% believe in miracles (I do.)
Most believe in a God or creator energy source (I believe that there's a higher power somewhere.)
All believe in life on other planets (YES.)

Omg. XDD And also, Donghae fits most of this too XD

14552.) I think I'm happy, despite everything. - tumblr secrets

And I really think I am. Things will get better, everything will be alright. I know we can make it through this :)

All you need is faith, and trust, and pixie dust.
Well. Today was definitely a better day than yesterday :D

School was surprisingly good today. Science was really fun AND I LOVE 2S1'10 OMGZ. Hopefully this year will be a better year, since this year is our last year together...*gets emotional*

LOLOLOL. ANYWAYS.

I'm so excited for Home Ecs next week. WE'RE BAKING CUPCAKES AND PHYLLIS AND I HAVE THOUGHT OF AWESOME IDEAS >D

Oh, and Jaslin has seriously become funnier this year.

Eun Hae: Nicole, what happened to your hair?!
Nicole: Nothing happened to my hair -.-
Eun Hae: It looks different...
Jaslin: Nothing happened to her hair, something happened to your eyes.

Jaslin: Nicole, today are we supposed to wear PE or House shirt?
Nicole: PE, only the House Leaders wear House shirt.
Jaslin: THEN WE BUY HOUSE SHIRT FOR WHAT?!

8D

P.S. I KEEP SEEING SNOW WHITE. It's happening like, almost on a daily basis. Lots and lots of (Y) prz.

Goodbye must be easier. It must be easier than love.
You forget everything at just one word.

I'll have to forget you as much as I love you
I can't do things that are too difficult.
Goodbye is difficult for me.

Aw :(

After 1 year full of testworks, I have finally gotten my Speaker's Badge + Thrift Badge + Total Defence Badge, and...


NYEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE.

Omg, I'm really so...satisfied now. All those hours trying to squeeze all the words into my tiny brain HAVE FINALLY PAID OFF AND I HAVE MY BRONZE BADGE NAOZ. *shows off to blog readers*

But seriously. I'm kind of...speechless. IT SEEMS SO SURREAL THAT 1 YEAR HAS PAST AND I AM GOING TO BE A SEC 2 GUIDE AND THE SEC 1s ARE COMING IN REAL SOON AND I CAN IMPART ALL MY VALUABLE NONSENSE KNOWLEDGE TO THEM BWAHAHA.

The Dedication Ceromony was quite...amusing. While marching into our Horse Shoe format thingamajig I accidentally stepped on Jonas Ma'am's shoe and her heel came out so she was marching on her shoe.

*fails at describing*

Basically I was being my usual fail-self OK?! Then uh, yah, we got our badges (and Serena Ma'am = (Y), btw), debrief AND THEN WE WERE RELEASE HOME WOO.

Omg, Idk why I ♥ Guides so much BUT I DO. *sigh*
Math homework.

Art Mandala.

Chinese Jian Bao.

Guides testwork.

All due by tomorrow.

I.
Am.
So.
Dead.

Credit: mmixes

MasaMixes so awesome, prz. AND I LOVE THE ROCK VERSION OF RING DING DONG 8DD

Omgz, I want to do so many things nao but I don't have the time D:

- Work on clique story
- Work on fanfic
- Watch 那一年的幸福时光 (I'm still stuck at episode 2 -.-), 下一站，幸福 and SHINee's Hello Baby
- Plan June class outing

And just a mini-rant here:

You. I've had enough of your crazy mood swings/random-PMS-moments. Intially I thought that it was just one of your flaws. But then it's happened so many times that I really just want to turn and walk away when you start one of your mini-episodes. Also, do you remember what you were supposed to do as a group leader? Of course not, judging by the fact that your group members had to panic and do the task by themselves even though it was the group leader's responsibility. Then after that, you lashed out at one of your group members even though she did nothing wrong. Can't you make the simple connection between those two words? It's simple enough, and she thought that you would be able to understand. Apparently not.

I really hope you'll at least try to fix this problem of yours.

Credit: weheartit
Hi people. Sorry for not updating again, school has been busy (but I like this level of busy-ness :D) Meh, shall just type whatever happens to be in my head right now.

This morning was quite a fun one :D There was a baby lizard (and when I mean baby, I literally mean baby. It was pink :O) appeared out of nowhere and I screamed and got out of my seat, then Loo Sin did the same. So I asked Nicole to get rid of it (since she looks very...man. ROFLROFL) So then Nicole and Zhixin went to corner it and Nicole screamed when it was going her way LOL.

THENTHENTHEN. The baby lizard got into one of the open lockers and Nicole accidentally slammed it shut.

...

It should've suffocated to death by now :(

For Assembly we had a mass dance~ But it was impromptu so HEH HEH HEH.

Then had CME quiz (which was quite awesome because it was open-book and we got to chat in a VGLF chatroom after that 8D), Chinese, Recess (where I saw Snow White OMGOMGOMG. I've been seeing her so frequently these days 8D) and then half an hour of Art (where Ms O. called my Clip Art homework a "Muppet". XDD)

After school Coleen, Loo Sin, Steph and I went to Raffles City to find a birthday gift for _________.

I'm not in the mood to type alot right now (and my pre-IC Lit homework is staring at me D:) so I shall just type the keywords that sum up our trip:

- fried worms
- flavoured lip balm (I bought a vanilla flavoured one :D)
- new earphones (WOO. IT'S PINK BTW NYEHEHE.)

Ok, shall go work on my Literature homework nao. Bye~

P.S. 1 month and 4 more days to my birthday *hinthint*
Just a short little post before I update with a real post after school.

One, Girl Guides is not slack. I'm sure I don't have to type out who I'm directing this to, and I just want to clarify that I'm not angry, I just want to speak up for my own CCA (which is awesome btw.)

I do not deny that in terms of strictness, Girl Guides is not on the same level as NCC, but you cannot say that Girl Guides is slack, and as I quote, "even slacker than NPCC." By saying this, you are insulting both CCAs. Since both of you are from a different category of CCAs, you do not know how tough Uniform Groups are, regardless of the level of strictness.

Do you know how tiring it is to do footdrills for 2 whole hours? You do not, because once again, we are from different categories of CCAs. It is unfair for you to judge a CCA just by seeing what we did for one day (and btw, we were taking a rest from footdrills, ok. -.-)

Many people think that Guides is the slackest CCA out of all the Uniform Groups. But you are wrong.

I admit that I myself thought that it was the slackest, but after spending almost 1 year in it, I have learnt that Girl Guides is still one of the most disciplined CCAs. My favourite thing about Guides is that there is no one topic that we focus on, thus allowing us to learn a variety of things (outdoor cooking, footdrills, campcraft, tentpitching etc.)

Honestly, I'm suprised at the fact that you actually dare to tell me that my own CCA is very slack straight in my face. And you even have the guts to say that Steph was slack during footdrills too. DO YOU THINK IT'S VERY EASY TO DO FOOTDRILLS?! I'D LIKE TO SEE YOU DO IT.

I know that both your CCAs are tough too. In fact, all the CCAs require the same level of passion and commitment. But that does not give you the right to label Girl Guides in that way, since you have no idea on how hard we work in this CCA.

I would've never guessed that I would be so in love with Girl Guides, but I am. And I just want to remind you that I'm not angry, I just want to explain that you do not have the simplest right to insult my CCA.


Omg, this did not turn out to be a short post. But whatever :D

"I want to be happy because he is happy. But how can I be happy knowing that I'm not the one making him smile?"

Aw. XD


Easier said than done.

School was ok today, I felt super hardworking because I paid lots of attention and even did notes during Sceince, which is quite an accomplishment for me *proud*

This whole week has been rather hectic, and there has not been one day where I've reached home before 5pm D: Hopefully, next week will be better, since there's half-day and all 8D

P.S. Does anybody know where to buy food-flavoured lip balm in Singapore at a reasonable price? Steph and I are looking for them just for fun ROFL. I know there's one shop in Raffles City, if I'm not wrong...*mumbling to self*

Credit: Affxtion.

YOU WANT TO DIE?! *waves umbrella around* - Stephanie C.

I shall kill everyone of you in a unique and different way! :D - Eun Hae

Yes, your eyes do not fool you. LOO SIN HAS PROFESSED HER LOVE FOR ME BWAHAHA.

School days have been rather hectic, but fulfilling. I've actually been taking down notes now! *proud* The new seating arrangement is kewl too, just then I'm afraid I'll get "lazy eye" by sitting at the side D:

OHOHOH, and you know, Lee Junghoon shall be my ideal guy. ALL YOU LOYAL READERS SHOULD KNOW WHY 8D But if you're really that clueles...

Lee = Lee Donghae
Jung = Jungmin
Hoon = Jonghoon

Heh heh heh.

Omg, Idk why I'm becoming broke again. I've had to spend so much money on food + stationery *dies* Oh oh, and is anyone going for the band concert on Friday? COME WITH ME, WE SHALL SUPPORT THE TUBA SECTION BAND TOGETHER~

Andandand. I hate how I have these random mood swings and as a result I tend to accidentally lash out at people. Then being the stubborn person I am I'm too proud to apologize after that :(

Omg, this post is just like, a compilation of all the random things running through my head right nao. *fails*

Today, my heart sunk when I realized I wasn’t paranoid after all. I was 100% right. MMT.

I'm afraid that this might happen to me one day ._.

“A huge part of what I do is about growing up and still keeping that kid side of you,” Sokoler says. “So many people grow up, and they’re always stressed and working, and everything is serious from then on, and I think that’s very sickening. You can still keep this fun side of you, the side of you that enjoys making cupcake sandwiches for breakfast. I think people forget how to have fun when they’re older.” - Kate Sokoler, American Way Magazine

Omg (Y) Kate Sokoler is so brilliant. I want to have The Peter Pan Syndrome too :D


EDITTED.

Ok, shall updated about the first week of school nao. *gets ready for lots of typing*

4/1/10
Woke up at 5.30AM and it was raining D: And then I started thinking how unlucky it was that it was raining on the Sec 1's first day of school. I reached school at around 6.40AM, put my back in the 2S1 classroom (to chope my seat LOL) before going to 1S1'10 to put my files+paper stuff, then went down for Council.

After that, we (Coleen, Eun Hae and I) went up to the 1S1'10 classroom, interracted with them for awhile, before leading them down to the hall, I think (I can't really remember much, actually XD).

After Assembly, we just had some paper work done, orientation programme etc. Then at 2.15pm we had their very first cheer practice, woo~

And you know what. 1S1'10 CAN CHEER VERY WELL. THEY'RE LOUDER THAN 1S1'09 EVER WAS.

I'm serious.

You know I was so blown away. It was their very first cheer practice, but they were (quite) loud and very impressive. And then the Voice of Reason in my head said: "They're going to win this year."

So then after that had a debrief (I think...) before releasing the junior, nyahehe.

5/1/10
I can't really remember what happened on this day. Usual paperwork, interracting with the juniors.

*checks schedule*

OHOH. We had to go through lots of talks with the juniors. And we had to sing the school song, which was quite fail because for some reason we kept on singing faster than the music itself, so....XD

Then the juniors had their sports trial and everything was quite rushed, especially the Shuttle Run, where everyone started to panic. But we managed to make it through :D Then had cheer practice etc. XDD

6/1/10
Nothing much happened on this day, it was actually quite similiar to the previous day, except the Sec 1s had "The Quest". The water bomb games were the most awesome ones, in my opinion, and the juniors looked like they had more fun than we did last year (I still can't believe I'm Sec 2 already :O)

Halfway through the cheer practice Sharon actually threw a water bomb at Wanning and her skirt got wet, so Sharon had to help her dry her skirt. XDD Then we took the time to help 1S1 elect half of their Class Comm. 8D

7/1/10
Dedication Ceremony. I finally got to sit in the Gallery~ Then you know at first Eun Hae and I were sitting at the steps behind, then suddenly Ms O started saying: "Those two girls sitting at the steps, please sit with your classmates, you are not supposed to be blocking the way to the AVA room," etc. Then I started to panic because I thought she was talking about us.

Then I remembered that the AVA room was on the other side, the side opposite from us -.- Still, sitting in the Gallery was kewl :D But it was quite warm D:

Had a few lessons, finally so glad to be back with 1S1 2S1'10. I'm kind of proud that I (sort of) paid attention to the classes. XDD

OHOH during cheer practice I decided to show the juniors the videos See Min took of us cheering last year to show them our epic phails. And when they saw my Super Junior wallpaper THEY STARTED SQUEALING BWAHAHA. Then when I opened a browser they saw my Suju start page and they got so excited 8DD

It's so awesome to have a class full of K-Pop fans XD

I had to leave halfway because I had to report for Guides, so yeah. XD

8/1/10
Campfire night~ I left lessons at 12.30pm to have lunch + help set up the fire.

After setting up fire, Kellie and I started to roam around the CCA Open House since we had no duty. And Gloria gave me a Mentos just because I said "I want one too!" jokingly when Kellie got one. AWESOME OR NOT BWAHAHA.

So this was what we did more or less. AND I SAW SNOW WHITE, OMGOMGOMG. I haven't seen her in a long time (only certain people will know who I'm talking about NYAHAHA.)

After Open House it started DRIZZLING. And everyone started panicking, and the juniors + councillors + Guides were disappointed because we'd put in so much work in preparing for the campfire. And it got even worse when they said that the campfire would be held in the hall (with a lamp as a replacement for the campfire how pathetic wonderful is that.)

THENTHENTHEN! Ms L announced that the campfire would be held in the parade square after all, because it'd stopped raining, WOO~ Then Jaslin and I started screaming + jumping up and down. XD

So then we ran to set up the fire (happily) and the best thing was that the logs for the campfire WERE NOT WET AT ALL WOOHOO.

So campfire started, and in the middle there was this really light drizzle. And Elin Ma'am asked everybody to move to the corridors and the mood went down again. Then I think Ms L said there was no need so the mood went up again~

Had the cheer competition, 1S1'10 WAS THE BEST, I DON'T CARE IF YOU CALL ME BIAS. They were really loud ok, I could hear them from the back of the parade square (yes I did run to the back to listen to them.) I like the choreography too :D Thanks to all the seniors + classmates who did last minute trainings with them~

All the performances were really cool. NPCC's taekwando was so (Y), especially their dance thingamjig, the Sec 3s did their fancy drills with Sorry Sorry (which Kellie and I did majoy spazzing to). Red Cross' drills were the most complicated in both timing and steps, but they managed to pull it off, and NCC's performance just took my breath away.

You could hear Eun Hae's voice from across the parade square, REALLY AWESOME. I BET IF SHE WERE A GUY SOME JUNIORS MIGHT FALL IN LOVE WITH HER LOLOL.

The Ma'ams' performances were still the best. I'm serious. The dance moves looked REALLY professional AND COOL OMG I WANT TO LEARN THE DANCE RIGHT NAO. Should've brought my camera to video it (actually I did, but it was in my bag XDD)

Although 1s1'10 didn't win (which I still think they should have), they are a really awesome bunch of juniors. At first I was worried that I would get a class full of horrible juniors BUT I DID NOT, THANK GOD.

And I sort of miss them now, after following them around for 3 days XDDD


All in all, the first school week of 2010 was hectic, but enjoyable. Thanks to everyone who made me laugh+happy, because those are the two things that I love doing/being the most. :)

P.S. WELCOME, ALL JUNIOR-STALKERS.
P.P.S. I can't believe I've missed Music Bank for one whole month :(
P.P.P.S. The juniors are in lurve with me~ BWAHAHAHA.

If you love someone, put a circle around their name instead of a heart because as pretty as it looks, hearts can be broken but circles go on forever.

Aww (Y)

Credit: here.
Ok, so everyone (Vanessa, Eun Hae, Loo Sin etc.) has posted their New Year blog posts except me. So I shall do it on the first day of 2010, woo~

2009 has been a really special and different year for me. In the span of these 365, I've gotten my first taste of secondary school, entered the world of K-Pop, and basically changed from who I was on 31 December 2008.

And being the neat-freak I am, I shall write this post in sections :D

Secondary School
I remember my first day of school was an excrutiatingly embarassing one (which can be found in my January 2009 archive), and I had to sit in front of Mr Y because I was late *facepalm* It was rather awkward throughout the first few days of school, but I remember Jaslin being my very first friend in Crescent (and up till this day I still remind her of this fact whenever I need her help LOL *mean*)

Then I started sticking with Jae and Stephanie, and I think I was quite annoying DX And somehow I ended up hanging out with Loo Sin and the others XDD I think it was because I sat in front of Coleen for quite some time, then we started chatting etc.

OH OH SWIMMING LESSONS. Omg, swimming lessons were...memorable. I can still remember lining up to get a changing room (and because I was the lazy girl I still am I just changed rather than bathed XD), and how disguting the changing rooms were. But swimming lessons were fun, and at least I know how to swim now. I still hate them for turning me so tan though D:< style="font-weight: bold;">so proud when I think to that day where almost everyone stayed back to help with the Racial Harmony decorations, and that time where we took the class picture for our National Day Photography entry.

1S1'09 has really made me more mature, as well as more willing to take up responsiblity. I know some of you might think I'm bossy, rude and stubborn, and I cannot tell you how much I thank you all for willing to put up with my random mood swings and straightfoward behaviour. I also know how some of you might have been offended/hurt by me, and I really hope you can forgive me T^T

All in all, 1S1'09 is a really amazing class, one that has made me love and hate all 41 of them (but more towards the loving side :D). Although people have left, and people have come, we will be Forever41 (MWAHAHA, indirect link to Only13), and I hope that in the coming year (both our second & last one D:), we will create more awesome memories. Because we will forever be Awesomes, and Awesomes stick together.

Girl Guides
Honestly, if you'd asked 2008!Rachel, she would never have said that she would expect 2009!Rachel to join Guides. Despite the fact that I only got into Guides because I failed for my top 2 CCA choices (LAWL), I fell madly in love with Guides over the span of 2009. In the beginning, I kind of disliked it, mainly because during Telematch (aka Very First Guides Session) I got poured with cold water + salt + pepper + pasta (?!), and also because of all the testwork and footdrills, I really dreaded every Monday and Thursday.

Then came the more fun activities, for example GGC'09 and Patrol Corner. My very first Patrol Corner was quite fun, because all we did was sit in a circle and eat potato chips. Joyce, Peijun, Yimei Ma'am and Serena Ma'ma (Idk why Vivien Ma'am wasn't there ._.) were all really kind and inviting and I'm really, really happy that I got into Flowerpecker with such awesome Ma'ams and seniors.

Although the Sec 2 Guides'10 are still not as bonded as I'd like, we've made improvements and I hope that we'll be able to become much more closer in 2010 :)

July 30th 2009
July 30th 2009 is quite an important date. Not only was it the day of Show Luo's 30th birthday (heh), it was also the day when I decided to become an ELF, as well as step into the world of K-Pop. For this I have to thank Magenta for MSN-spamming me with pics and video links of Super Junior.

Also, the first time I watched the Sorry Sorry MV was after seeing the boys perform at the Golden Horse (is it? I forgot which one XD) Awards in Taiwan. Originally, I'd actually laughed out lot at the dance steps, and yet I wanted to watch them do it again (LOL) so I searched for it.

And then it got stuck in my head.

Becoming a K-Pop fan was quite an experience for me, because before that the only fangirling I did was over Show/Wang Lee Hom, and even that was only at a minimum level. I learnt quite alot, and I still think that becoming an ELF has made me become a happier person :D

I really 13elieve in Only13 (which is a family of 15), and no matter what happens in the future, I just want them to be able to still be a family, be very close friends, and still be able to have heart-to-heart chats. Because I really cannot imagine them pretending that Super Junior never existed, and neither can I.

November 25th 2009
This was the day when I decided to become a Triple S. I remember (omg, I've used this two words so many times in this blog post XD) the only reason I searched for the Love Like This MV was because of an article on allkpop, which was talking about Triple S and SHINee fans arguing over the Mubank K-Chart results. And I thought: 'Are the songs really worth it?' So I went to YouTube and searched for the MV.

Love Like This ignited my fangirl-ness (I know it's not a word D:<) for SS501, and I had a feeling Jungmin would be my bias if I ever became a fan of SS501 (because his voice reminded me of Donghae's when he sang "Hey girl~"). And when I told this to Loo Sin, she started to spam me with video links, and a few days before GGC'09, I decided to become a Triple S (and I anticipated the fangirling over SS501 with Joyce & Kellie XDD)

December 25th 2009
Other than this date being Christmas, this was also the day when I became a Primadonna. After seeing them perform live at Seoul'd Out, I fell in love with Bing Bing Bing (and also a little bit of Jonghoon).

I had contemplated alot before becoming a Primadonna, because I felt so...unloyal to Suju and SS501 (XDD), and I was afraid that I would become like those fangirls who had multiple fandoms (which for some reason I do not like D:<). But then I remembered that 3 was my lucky/fave number, so I decided to become a Primadonna after Loo Sin spammed me with Jonghoon selcas (ROFL). So basically, 2009 has brought me through things that I never thought I would experience, and met people who I never would've expected to become friends with. I admit that I still have alot of shortcomings to improve on, and I hope that I'll be able to improve them by the end of this year :) To end off this post, I will post the lyrics of Super Junior's "Thank You", because it encompasses all I want to tell to everyone who I've met this year.

For being my strength when I was weary
And for always being by my side
I finally say this now
Thank you

And because of you, I’m happy
This is for you

Before my tears try, they had to spill that day
You held my hand in the dark
Without a word, you watched over me
Thank you

You must have had a harder time than I did
You must have worried more than I did
Because of you I was able to stand
It’s a thankful heart

There was so much you wanted to give me
You struggled with the fact that you couldn’t
Trust me, grab my hand
With you, I feel like anything can be done, forever

Before my tears try
They had to spill that day
You held my hand in the dark
Without a word, you watched over me

I won’t have a hard time anymore
Even if times get rough, I have you
Without having to say a word, there’s someone like you who already knows it all
I’m happy

(Credit: Aheeyah.com)

Oh, and Happy Birthday to Sungmin~ (Please continue doing random acts of aegyo, and moar Kyumin moments prz :D)

P.S. I miss 2009 already :(

HELLO PEOPLE! Rachel is me. I'm emotionally awkward, might have OCPD, and most people cannot comprehend my logic and way of thinking which is full of awesomeness and win. A true-blue ELF, and a Triple S.

Wishlist
- A pet goldfish (which I will name Ember 8D)
- To spray whipped cream into my mouth
- To go to a fish spa
- To become roomies with Magenta and Cassandra
- Sony Ericsson W705e
- Canon E19 Cotton Candy Pink digital camera
- 「爱的3温暖」S.H.E book
- “Rumour Has It” by Jill Mansell
- “The Resistance” by Gemma Malley
- “The Feminine Mystique” by Betty Friedan
- “It Must Be Love” by Rachel Gibson
- “You Kill Me” by Alison Gaylin
- "Heartless" by Alison Gaylin
- "Thirteen Reasons Why" by Jay Asher
- 《Breakthrough》Colbie Caillat CD
- 《爱，一直存在》梁文音 CD
- 《Super Junior 05》Super Junior CD
- 《U》Super Junior CD
- 《Don't Don》Super Junior CD
- 《Sorry Sorry》Super Junior CD
- 《Super Girl》Super Junior M Mini-Album
- 《Super Show II》DVD

- Super Show 3 in Singapore (8DD)

Eve
Phoebe
Vanessa
Zi Yun

Crescentians
1S1'09/2S1'10
Claire
Coleen
Eun Hae
Fyn
Jae
Jaslin
Loo Sin
Patricia
Ping Xin
Sachpreet
Shalynn
Stephanie
Yixian
Zhang Yan

Girl Guides
Adeline
Hannah
Joyce
Kellie
Li Yun
Mao Ning

Crystal L.
Deborah T.
Paula W.
Sabrina
Szeling

Queenstowners
Aleen
Alyssa
Candy (Magenta)
Cassandra
Deanna
Evvie

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